Inside My Bell Jar...

Mikey likes it!

2012-01-17T11:04:00.000-06:00

Yes, I just dated myself with that title. If you don't know who Mikey is, he was a character on a tv commercial in the 1980's when I was little. He was supposedly a picky eater who, of couse, ended up liking the cereal in the ad. Now on to the real post.

Nola has eaten all of the following things: apples, prunes, butternut squash, zucchini, yukon potatoes, sweet potatoes, mango, apricots, brown rice, bananas, carrots, green beans, peas, broccoli, quinoa, celery, and onions. Oh, and oatmeal and rice cereal. She's also had all of these spices/enhancements: cinnamon, thyme, cilantro, nutmeg, sage, ginger, lemon zest, organic vegetable broth, olive oil and garlic powder. So far, she loves absolutely everything. I enjoy making the food too.

Last night, she had broccoli puree, which I believe I had added lemon zest too, with quinoa pilaf, which contained onions, celery, thyme, olive oil, and vegetable broth. I actually made one batch for us and one for her. I cut the vegetable broth in hers and did not add salt. That child loved it!

I am so proud of her. She loves everything. She hasn't snubbed anything. After the next few days of broccoli, I have a beet and navy bean puree and spinach with green peas. We'll see how those go. I haven't introduced meat yet. I know I need too, but I'd almost rather not. I know she does need protein though. I haven't done my research yet, but I will soon. I found a delicious recipe from Tyler Florence's book, Fresh Start, with turkey breast, cranberries, brown rice and sweet potatoes. I will probably try that soon.

Maybe it's a fluke and she would have eaten anything anyway, since both Aaron and I have always been good eaters, according to both our parents. Either way, I'm glad she's tried so many things when she's only been eating solid food for about 2 months and I've been doing 3-4 days between new things. I know, she'll go through a picky toddler stage and I'll be prepared for that, but you better believe it won't be McDonald's chicken nuggets and fries. Unless, someone sneaks that to her, she probably won't have any taste of that, hopefully until she's 18 and making her own decisions. Even then, I hope she snubs her nose at it.

Another year gone by

2012-01-16T23:06:00.000-06:00

It's funny how you wake up on New Year's Day and it really does feel like a fresh start (or is that just me). I feel revived and happy. Bring on the new year, please. I am ready for it. 2012 has a lot to live up to with all the blessings that 2011 bestowed on me. You know me, I'm always trying to put positive energy out and it seems to work in my favor. For that reason, I have no doubt that this year will exceed my expectations.

To be honest, I don't really remember last year's goals. First time parenting really throws you for a loop, doesn't it? I had no idea that my world would be flipped upside down. Ah, sweet naivety. Usually I will repost last year's goals and go over how I accomplished the goals or how I fell short with a reason to back it up, but I don't want to do that this year. Last year was the year of Nola. That's all that matters.

This year's goals all came to me without any effort of thinking about them and pondering what I should for the year. They are things that I want to work on or do regardless of whether it's January or the beginning of the new year. So without further ado, here is what I hope the year has in store for me.

Bring healthy back. This means lose the pesky 3 or 4 pounds that I have left from having Nola, exercise more, and return to eating better. During my pregnancy, I may have only gained 26 pounds, but I was not eating so well towards the end. You guys, remember my reeses peanut butter cup and Dr. Pepper love. Well, I'm still drinking Dr. Pepper, where as, before I rarely drank them. In 2009, I vowed to cut out sodas from my diet and I went 6 months without drinking a single one. I haven't been eating well lately either, I feel bloated and just ugh. The good thing about living a pretty healthy lifestyle is when you lose your way your body doesn't like it one bit. It helps to keep you more accountable. Also, I want to start exercising again. I was walking and jogging before I got pregnant and have only gone a handful of times since having Nola. I'm contemplating doing a 21 day cleanse, but not being able to have caffeine scares me a little. Plus, I had to give it up for 9 months, I finally get to enjoy my coffee again. Granted, it is only 21 days. Anyways, I'm not going to deprive myself, so if I want the dang cheeseburger and fries, I'll eat it, but I am going back to my old ways of eating better and getting the ol' muscles working again. For the record, I'm drinking a Dr. Pepper as I type this. Baby steps, people, baby steps.
Make or buy all my gifts for throughout the year early. This is still fresh on my mind because Christmas had me running around days before trying to finish up my shopping. That is so how I don't usually do things. I usually pick things up throughout the year when they are on sale and am finished shopping early. I usually keep a running tab of who's birthday is next, so that I can buy the gifts a month or two ahead. I already have a good start. We started a tradition this year of the three of us getting pajamas to open on Christmas Eve. I've already bought all three of our pajamas for next year. They were all on clearance too! It stresses me out to not be prepared for things, which brings me to my next goal.
Get organized again. I don't know how I'm going to do this or don't really have a plan, but I need to do something. After panic attacks started rearing their little dirty little heads again, I vowed I had to do something. Things have gotten better. I still can't get a handle on all the errands and housework. How do you other moms do it? It has gotten better now that Nola doesn't want me to hold her 24/7, but I still need to get an even better grip on things. I still do my meal plans, which are helpful, but I guess I need a schedule or to start doing my daily lists again to stay on top of things.
Back to the budget. You all know I'm thrifty, but I think I'm going back to budgeting more. Meaning, checking sales papers and going to the store with the cheapest prices. Making sure I have my coupons handy, even when it comes to going out to dinner. Basing my meal plan on what meats and things are on sale. I want to put more in savings and save towards doing some sprucing up to the house. I've already started this one too. I've picked up quit a few things for Miss Nola for next year. Let's hope she stays on track as far as clothing fitting her based on her age. Plus, I'm trying to meal plan based on what I already have at home. My pantry is too full. No, I'm not bragging on that one!
Spruce up this house. Well, since I'll be budgeting and saving, it's definitely the year to to do this! We have too many half finished projects. It's so annoying to me. I want to try to focus on one room and then finish it and then move on. This seems oddly familiar. Was it on last year's list? I'm too lazy right now to look. We are FINALLY almost finished with Nola's room. It has turned out remarkably just like I wanted it. As soon as things are finished up, I'll post some pictures. She is finally sleeping in there! I must say, as much as I didn't want to move her up, it has really been the best thing. She sleeps better, wakes up happier, and we can walk around our room and talk (amongst other things) in bed without worrying that we're going to wake up the baby that is snoozing right next to our bed. On the list for this year is also replacing the carpets/flooring. It is so time. It's going to hit us in the financial area, but will be so worth it. Now to try to talk Mr. O into hardwood on the first floor. Bringing up the house, if I were moving right now, check out these two houses, mls 1301520 and 1328184 . There are plenty of things I would change, like pastel walls, but they have pretty good bones to work with. I especially like the first one. I am definitely not a new construction kind of girl.
Another O baby. Yes, really. Would I like to have more time in between them? Yes, of course. The age of my eggs are hurrying things up a bit. Yes, I know plenty of people of people older than me have perfectly healthy kids, but I can also plead the case for all the people my age or younger that have Down Syndrome babies or other birth defects. Plus, do I really want to be like 50 when my child is in elementary school? Hells to the no. Some people may be fine with that and to each his or her own, but for me, time is of the essence. We'll be trying later this year. I haven't decided if I'll blog about the attempts or our treatments if we have to go that route again, which I'm hoping we won't have too and my body will get it together. Maybe I will or maybe I won't, but there is another O baby on the horizon. Seriously, have you seen my child? How could we not have another? Just so you know, I haven't been on birth control, since having Nola, but given the fact, that I was off of it for years and years and nothing happened, I'd rather take my changes than prohibit something that may be difficult to achieve. You feel me?

All in all, not a bad list. Short and simple and all necessary. I have a good feeling about 2012. Bring it on.

Get your shopping on

2012-01-12T00:23:00.001-06:00

Just in case you or your family need some clothes, go to Old Navy. You can take an additional 30% off clearance prices. I scored 7 or 8 shirts and a jacket for Nola for next fall/winter, 2 shirts for my nephew Hayden, 2 pair of pajamas for Aaron, and a hoodie cardigan and shirt for me all for $80. Word!

You can pretty much find a steal anywhere now on winter clothing. I bought Nola a red wool peacoat at Target for $8.08 for next year. They already have bathing suits out. Ugh. I don't even want to think about that yet.

Oh yeah, if you have any littles at home, then stop in at Babies R Us. They don't have the best clothing selection, but for an additional 40% off their clearance prices, it's worth a look! I scored 5 or 6 shirts for Nola and a Carter's outfit. The shirts were $2-3 a piece and the outfit was $9. Can't bet that, especially with the incredibly growing girl.

And no, I was not paid to write this post. I wish I was because I'd go back for more. Um, who am I kidding, I will be going back for more!

The best nightlight

2012-01-12T00:05:00.001-06:00

Would it be wrong to leave the Christmas lights along our stairs' banister all year long? I'm going to miss the soft glow on my way to bed at night and their warm welcome when I get home from work. And yes, my Christmas decorations are still up. I'll be taking them down on Friday. Saddest day of the year.

Baby words

2012-01-09T11:41:00.000-06:00

Well, there has been lots of baby babble over in the O home. For months and months, this child will carry on a conversation with you for ten minutes straight. Granted, you have no idea what she's saying, but it so dang adorable.

Now, real words have happened. She looked right at me and called me, "Momma," while we were in Gatlinburg in November. That really was her first word. Since then, I've only gotten her to say it a couple of times. She's said, "Dada," but not really to Aaron. The funny thing is over the last few days we think she's calling him Aaron. It sounds just like it. I don't call him Aaron usually, so I'm assuming, if it's really what she's saying, it must be from his parents and family being over during the holidays. She looked right at him yesterday when he walked into the bonus room and said, "Aaron," all excited. I'm working on getting her to say daddy or dada because Aaron really doesn't like her calling him by his name.

The best words came on Christmas Eve. My mom and her ~~evil~~ boyfriend were leaving our house. My mom was waving and saying, "bye, bye," to Nola. Nola raised her hand, which we've been working on waving, waved and said, "bye, bye." At first, we all didn't think she really said it, then she waved and said it again. It was amazing. I'm telling you there is no better feeling than seeing your child learn something new. Also that day, when handing her a doll, she said, "baby." Plain as day. She's said both since then, more so than momma or dada or Aaron. Leave it to our child to be different and say other things besides our names.

While writing this post, it made me think of one of my most vivid memories when my sister was little. I'm pretty sure it was on Christmas Eve. We lived in a little trailer and I was probably 4 or 4 1/2 years old and my sister was probably 1 or 1 1/2 years old. We were sitting at the little kitchen table and in the midst of looking for Ruldolph's nose and lights that were moving in the sky (duh! Santa's sleigh), I remember pointing to things trying to get her to say them. Most of them, she would say. It was so exciting when she repeated, "Tree, bush, star, etc."

It's funny because I have lots of memories from that time in my life. I don't know why some ages stick out more in your mind than others. I hope when I look back on this time I remember how exciting Nola's first words were. I hope I remember that tiny hand going in the air and waving backwards, while saying, "bye, bye," and that it happened during the most magical time of the year.

Capturing a moment

2011-12-05T13:36:00.000-06:00

I found this picture today when looking for another one. It's from Aaron's iPhone. It's the first time that I had ever seen it. Now, it's quite possibly my favorite picture ever. I can't believe it's been 6 1/2 months since it was taken.

Gratitude.

2011-11-24T20:53:00.000-06:00

It seems like this year has been a whirlwind, but one full of blessings and so much learning and growing for myself and our little family. Today, on Thanksgiving, and on every other day of the year I am completely grateful for this little life of mine and everything that touches it.
I am grateful for my wonderful husband. He makes me laugh like no other and stills sends tingles down to my toes with just a look. He's pretty easy on the eyes too. I feel like we started out as babies all those years ago and now look at us and everything that we have learned almost 11 years later. I'm glad he chose me to walk along beside him.

I am so thankful for a happy, healthy, adorable little girl. She has one spunky little attitude. She's learning so much and at such a fast rate. I am just amazed to watch her discover the world around her. She truly was an answering to many prayers and tears. She is definitely our little miracle and I'm proud to be her momma.

I am grateful for my friends and family, who have taught me, cried with me, cheered me up, and made me laugh. Life would be nothing without the people who touch it. So, if you are reading this, thanks for anything and everything you do to brighten this place up. :)

I am blessed to have a roof over my head, a job I enjoy, coworkers, who make even the bad days worth it, food in my belly, a car to get me from point A to point B, clothes in my closet, access to health care and medicine, access to education with the ability to learn, enough money in our bank account to provide us with the things we need and a bed to lay my weary head on at night.

I am pretty much grateful for anything and everything, even the bad things that have taught me something new.

On a less serious note, I am grateful for pumpkin pie or really any pie, pancakes, being able to make baby food, sweaters, boots, Nola's headbands, bananas, peanut butter, tights, Top Chef, date nights, skinny jeans, clorox wipes, hand sanitizer, holidays were you just eat for days, music, Pandora, Christmas trees and music, ice cream, iPhones, texting, internet, Pinterest, toys that keep a little girl entertained, my array of cookbooks, houseshoes, comfortable pjs, eyeliner, clean sheets, food trucks, long weekend vacations, tutus on little girls, cameras to capture little moments, coffee, coupons, cool fall nights, and long enough hair to wear in a bun.

Hope each of you has had a happy Thanksgiving filled with happiness, warmth and plenty of food! I can't wait to get my eating on for the next two days!

You gonna eat that cornbread?

2011-11-23T00:37:00.001-06:00

I've been a busy bee in the kitchen this week. With Thanksgiving around the corner, I'm sure the trend will continue. After weeks of having take out and processed crap creep into our house and into our mouths, I'm finally getting my groove back in the kitchen. This whole mother thing is no joke. They'll be a separate blog post on that one. I'll do us all a favor and save the whining for now.

Not only have I made some delicious meals this week for myself and Mr. O, but our fridge is stocked full of yummy fresh ingredients, some of which will be used on Thanksgiving, and I've also made our little Nola girl some baby food! Yes, I'm high-fiving myself right now because I am that cool.

On the dinner front, I've made a pumpkin, barley and sausage soup, a classic pot roast cooked with potatoes, carrots, and celery with sautéed brussel sprouts on the side, eggplant ratatouille served with a fried egg on top and whole wheat French bread for dipping and spaghetti with the sauce I have spent years perfecting. Sometime in the midst of all the Thanksgiving feasting, I'll be making chicken breasts wrapped in prosciutto and sage with maple carrots and a salad on the side, a tamale pie, and whatever my hot husband wants for his birthday meal.

For Thanksgiving on the O side of the celebration, I'll be making roasted brussel sprouts with apples and bacon, cranberry salsa, and pumpkin bread with pecan filling. On my family's side, I'll be making the cranberry salsa, the same pumpkin bread and carrot souffle. Have I mentioned how much I love this holiday? I'll be working on the actual day of Thanksgiving, so think of me while your stuffing your faces and also keep these things in mind, if you are frying a turkey be very careful, watch your fingers while chopping any vegetables, be very careful and enlist help with lifting your turkey out of the oven with all of it's hot juices, and if you are outside playing with your family watch out for holes, hills, and other people because you do not want to be visiting me at work or any other ER employee on the day of feasting!

Finally, for my little love bug, I made three foods, sweet potatoes with a dash of cinnamon, sautéed zucchini with Yukon gold potatoes with a little cilantro mixed in (this one is a little slimy in consistency, so I'm not sure how it will go over. Better luck next time, $7.00 organic zucchinis) and puréed apples that I baked stuffed with prunes and sprinkled with cinnamon. I'm kind of hoping she won't like the apple one because that sh*t is delicious! Just upping my street cred by dropping words that need to be bleeped in a paragraph about baby food making. :)

Obviously, I'm tired. I should be sleeping with my snoring husband. Leave a comment if you want any of the recipes, I'd be happy to share. Ooh, and tell me about any fabulous things you are making for the holidays. My vault of recipes could always use more.

Shortening a month into a week

2011-11-18T14:48:00.000-06:00

So, my whole monthly posts on all the good things that happen have kind of gone out the window, since Nola is here now. To be honest, I was always having to go look at my calendar to see everything that happened in one month. I found myself forgetting to mention great things that would happen too. So, I needed a solution.

I've decided to switch from monthly posts to weekly posts. That way, I don't forget anything and, if all goes well, I should have at least one post a week.

So, here's all the great things that happened last week.

. Nola's temp finally breaking and seeing that girl's energy come back .

. visits at work from Mr. O & the girl .

. walking the greenway with Jessica and Layla .

. good news from Nola's renal ultrasound at Vanderbilt .

. getting in my car that was on empty to find a full tank of gas .

. safe travel to Gatlinburg .

. a great sister-in-law who watched our house and dogs .

. buckeyes and pecan logs .

. warmth from a fireplace .

. Nola laughs .

. bear stories at candy stores .

. games of Last Word (Worst birthday ever!) .

. first family hikes .

. grilled steaks and great salads .

. afternoon coffee stops .

. dancing bears .

. seeing B hold a baby .

. great times with good friends .

. The Next Iron Chef .

Hello, food. Goodbye, good smelling poop.

2011-11-18T14:26:00.000-06:00

Yes, that's right, Nola is eating food now. She's been eating organic brown rice cereal. That child loves it. Seriously, it's like she was starving. I bought the things to make her some sweet potato food, prune and apple, and some zucchini and potato baby food. I may not have stuck with the whole cloth diaper thing, but I'm making her food dang it! Here are some pics of her enjoying her first meal.

Big girl in her high chair for the first time.

Hmm, food.

Unsure about this whole food thing.

She loved it!

Gatlinburg 2011

2011-11-18T13:56:00.001-06:00

Last year, we spent the weekend of Halloween with our friends, Bridget and Derrick, and another couple in Gatlinburg. We actually told them we were pregnant that weekend. We decided to keep the tradition and go again this year. This time without the expecting announcement and, instead, an almost 6 month old in tow.

We rented the same cabin from last year, which is awesome. Aaron and I had the whole first floor because of rooming with a baby. Initially, we were worried because neither B or D or Derek and Sarah have kids. Kids are still a few years off for them (Right, B? Rice Baby 2012). Let me just say though, our Nola girl was a rockstar. Minus one major breakdown at breakfast on our way out of Gatlinburg, due to the fact that it was naptime, she was amazing! Sarah kept saying, "I can't believe what a good baby she is." Way to represent, Nola! We even went on 2.2 mile hike. That would be one way, folks. She smiled, slept and cooed the entire time.

I'm hoping this remains a tradition. Maybe next year, we'll have another announcement or someone else will. Maybe we'll go sans baby. Who knows? What I do know is it's nice to get away for a long weekend with great friends.

Hanging out at the cabin

Improvising bath time at the cabin. Yes, I cleaned the sink beforehand!

This girl loves a bath now.

B with her walking stick

Tuckered out before we even started.

D with his big stick

Hiking

First family hike.

Two of my favorite people

Uncle D and Nola.

Me and my mans.

The girls.

The boys.

B & D.

Derek & Sarah

Us.

Cutest baby ever!

Strolling around Gatlinburg.

Nola & her daddy.

Aunt B & Nola

One deck at the cabin.

Nola's world: month 4

2011-10-19T17:17:00.000-05:00

I am doing horribly about updating Nola's baby book. I decided that this month I would document it here, so I don't forget anything before I get around to writing it all down.

Nola just turned 5 months yesterday. Seriously. She's almost half a year old. How did that happen? I'm not biased or anything, but she is absolutely adorable and a (sometimes evil) little genius. Here are some things that rocked her world over the last month.

What she's doing:

Giving kisses. So stinkin' cute. I love the open mouthed, slobbery kisses, so much cuter than my ex-boyfriend, but that's a different story.
Dropping toys on purpose. She thinks it's funny. I find it quite annoying. On more than one occasion, we've been those parents that are frantically walking around a store looking for her dropped favorite toys.
Laughing at being tickled. Being tickled used to give her this surprised wide-eye look that immediately went into a cry. Now, she gets it and thinks it's hilarious. Her laugh can change an entire day for me.
Hating shoes. She'll come around. She tries her best to kick those things off and she gets mad! In the back seat on the way to meet my friend (Shout out to Esther!) for lunch and shopping, I could hear her rubbing her little moccasins together (Yes, she has moccasins. I die.) trying to get them off. She's ridiculous.
Smiling at clothes. I know which ones to buy because her face lights up. Mr. O's wallet is in trouble. Two girls that love to shop. She's my little partner in crime.
Finally, enjoying her baths. She just discovered with the help of her momma that she can splash. It's really cute now. I'm sure it won't be so cute when she's like one.
Sleeping on her belly. We finally feel comfortable letting her do this because she can turn her head. She sleeps so much better than before.
Sitting up with help. She will sit up for like 10 seconds and then fall. I've been working with her.
Rolling from her stomach to back. She's only done it twice, but we "practice" it a lot.
Still sleeping in our room. I know, I know, we need to move her to her room, but I just can't yet.
Loving some books. We've started reading at least two stories at night before she goes to bed.
Chewing on her hands and everything else that gets close to her mouth. I don't think she's teething, but she constantly chews on things. A few weeks ago I was looking in the rear view mirror and her head was down. I realized that she was chewing on the chest strap of her car seat. Strange little thing that one.
Grabbing her feet.

What she's loving:

Sophie the giraffe.
Gina the Giraffe from Great Britain.
When we talk in accents with her toys. Yes, all of her toys are from different countries. We are dorks, but it gets lots of smiles.
Little kids. She loves some little people! When I drop her off at daycare, I'm standing in the doorway waving bye and she's smiling at all the little kids and not paying a bit attention to me. This makes me so happy. It's easier to drop her off with those smiles. She especially loves Hayden, who now calls me his aunt-mom, and Brice.
Mirrors. That child lights up when she sees herself. That, along with everyone in the world telling her she's beautiful, I tell her all the time that it's good to be cute, but it's even better to be smart, nice to people and a good girl.
Bath time and splashing.
Shopping with me.
Talking in her baby language. Melt my heart. If only, we knew what she was saying.
Being outside. This girl is an outside kind of girl. She can't stop looking at everything.
Her nana and my sister. She loves both of them. My sister makes her laugh so hard. That's because she acts like she's five years old.
Sophie. As in, our dog. She is now okay with touching her too.

Things she's not loving:

Sleeping. She hates naps and going to sleep.
Being confined for too long. She loves her car seat, stroller, and bumbo for about 30 minutes and then she wants to move around.
Being sick. She had her first cold last week. It was pitiful. I hated it more than her, but she was fussy and clingy all week. She's all better now.
Her swing. I know, she used to love it! Now, she gets mad because she starts falling asleep pretty quickly in it.
Diaper changes and when her diaper is wet/dirty. Yes, these contradict each other. She cries when it's dirty and then cries again when you lay her down to change her.
The snot sucking thingy. This was horrible. She screamed like I was killing her, but then she was able to breathe, so worth it in the end.
When her mom cuts her with the nail clippers. Yes, I did this. I cried harder than her. We were both hysterical. Did I mention it bleed for 45 minutes? I thought for sure we were going to have to go to a walk in clinic. Did I also mention that Aaron had to go get a first aid kit because we didn't have one? Nurse fail. Mom fail. Overall fail.
Having her picture taken. Let's face it, the camera is constantly in her face. I think it's the flash more than anything that gets on her nerves. I'm sure she knows what it feels like to be stalked by paparazzi. Paparazzi of one, right here.

Nicknames:

Nola girl. Monkey. Love Bug. Sweet or baby girl. Nolie Poly. Angry bird.

Cuteness overload:

The little family that could

2011-10-19T16:21:00.000-05:00

Yes, I had started the last post forever ago and just now published it. I will get a handle on this blog/mom/life thing. It's crazy how fast a day can go by and then I look around and think, "What the heck have I done today!?"

It's killing me that I can't keep my house spotless, but I've come up with a plan. I've decided to focus on just one room a day on the days I don't work to clean. I'm still going to have my mom come over one day and watch Nola, so that I can clean for a few hours. I hate when things are messy. Chaos is not good for me. Just ask the panic attacks that are trying to sneak back into my life. Great.

I love my job and all. It's great that Nola only has to go to daycare two days a week, but working 10a-10p (or lately 10:30) means that on those days I can't get anything done. I wake up at 6:30 and have just enough time to shower and get myself ready, feed and get Nola ready, walk the dogs, load up my car, and eat breakfast, so that I can walk out the door at 8:35. Time is a blur on those mornings. I usually don't get home from work until 10:45 or 11:00 at night, depending on when I actually get to leave, so I try to wind down and end up in bed around 12:00. I do enjoy my job and it does pay the bills.

Also, I miss my husband. It's crazy we live in the same house, but basically see each other after 8:00p on Monday and Wednesday and on Friday nights. I hate that our schedules are opposite of each other, but our Nola girl is getting a lot of our attention, so that's better for her. Okay, enough complaining. Moving on.

Regardless of everything above, life is pretty good in the O house. Nola is thriving and we're surviving. I managed to cook two nights this week so far. Holla! It's nice to have Roasted Vegetable Lasagna and Sweet Potato and Hominy Soup leftovers in the fridge right now. The little love bug is sleeping pretty well at night and has been for a good little while now. We're working on her screaming her head off when try to put her down. She is so stubborn. I see the teen-aged years and I'm petrified.

I need to update with some pictures. So much as happened over the last month. I'll try my best to do some more updates this week. In the words of a famous train, "I think I can, I think I can."

Hello, Fall!

2011-10-19T15:53:00.001-05:00

Finally, fall is here. Summer seemed like it was 3 seconds long. I'm always ready for fall though, no matter how fast or slow it seems to get here. Here are some things I'm looking forward and some that I'm not so much looking forward to.

Exciting!

halloween. changing leaves. the return of some favorite tv shows: top chef, grey's, parenthood. the opening of the new container store in green hills. the chill in the night air. fall clothes. boots. chili and soup. thanksgiving. layering. seeing nola discover new things. pumpkin everything. nutmeg scent back at bath and body works. christmas shopping. the return of my houseshoes and sleep pants. tights. buying nola fall clothes. horror films coming out in the theater. Aaron's birthday. pumpkin carving party (not sure if we're going to do this again, but it was fun last year). opening up the windows. going to gatlinburg again with b and d. going for walks now that it's cooled down. fall garage sale as long as it does well for us. encores and more fall sale. hiking. nola's six month pictures. family pictures at my mom's work.

Not exciting.

nola starting daycare. flu season (go get your flu shots, people). having to work on thanksgiving. freezing at work. aaron's fall semester at school. allergies.

10 Day you challenge - The Finale

2011-09-26T13:52:00.000-05:00

Who actually needs to do these every day? Apparently, not this girl. You see this is why I don't have set posts each week. I'm just going to finish them all up now. The week in Florida messed everything up.

Six places could go a lot of different ways. I decided to choose six places that have a lot of meaning to me.

six places

Our House. Though I complain to Aaron about it all the time and look at houses constantly on Real Tracs, it will always be the place of so many firsts and a place filled with so much love. I know when I leave I'm going to cry like a baby. It was our first house, we got our dogs here, painted together and decorated together, we brought our baby to this home, etc.

The library. I don't go that often anymore because nursing school ruined books for me, but it still holds a dear place in my heart. It's probably because my mom started taking me to story hour when I was a toddler. Also, I love the smell of a good book and the weight of it in my hand. Reading is where it is at.

My great-grandmother's house. Ah, the original Nola. She's long since passed away and her house was sold a long time ago. So many things remind me of it. I still remember the way it smells. I think of it fondly often. We usually only went to visit on holidays because her house was about two hours away from us. I remember playing with spools (she saved them so that we could build things with them), watching the Thanksgiving or Christmas parades on tv, swinging on her porch swing, feeling big because my parents would let us go to the small little market across the street to get candy, sitting on her red stool in the kitchen "helping" her cook, cooked apples, her pantry full of things she canned, and opening gifts.

Hawaii, France, Ireland and New Zealand. As Tina Fey would say, "I want to go to there." Technically, four places, but these are places that I hope to go in this lifetime. If I get to just one of them, I will be a happy girl.

The North Pole. I'm not even kidding, folks. Yes, I know it doesn't exist. I'm telling you, Christmas was almost ruined because I found out Santa wasn't real. I mean I was DEVASTATED. I love the idea of it. I wish it were real. Think of how magical it would be.

The Beach. Give me a beach, any beach and I would be happy. They make the best vacations. I'm going to one tomorrow. Word. (Obviously, I started this post in Florida).

five foods

You know with me being a huge fan of cooking and food, this could go a million different ways. I chose, my last meal. If I knew I could only eat one last meal or was an inmate on death row, this would be what I would request.

Meatloaf, fried okra, carrot souffle, vanilla ice cream, and bread pudding.

four books

What does it say about a person when their favorite books are about crazy people? Don't answer that. I decided to put two of my favorite books and two books that I want to read.

Favorites:

The Bell Jar and The Catcher in the Rye

Soon to Read:

Eat, Pray, Love and The Memory Keeper's Daughter. Yes, I'm a little behind the times.

three films

Easy peasy. Three of my all time favorites.

What's Eating Gilbert Grape, Shaun of the Dead, and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

two songs

This is probably the hardest category. I love music. I'll just put two songs I'm loving right now.

Pumped Up Kicks (Foster the People) and Party Rock Anthem (LMFAO). Yes, I'm serious. Don't judge me. It's funny. I hardly listen to the radio (Thank you, Pandora and ipod!), but both of these are getting major play now.

one picture

I really wish I had gotten a picture of myself when Aaron and I went to our friend, Lea's, wedding last weekend. I have been dying for an occasion to wear the vintage dress that I picked up at Goodwill. I loved, loved, that outfit. I have hardly any recent pictures of myself and very few without another person in them. Here is a picture of us taken in Florida. Ignore my post baby body, please.

10 Day you Challenge - Day 6

2011-09-02T16:21:00.000-05:00

Who actually needs to do these every day? Apparently, not this girl. You see this is why I don't have set posts each week. Six places could go a lot of different ways. I decided to choose six places that have a lot of meaning to me.

six places

Our House. Though I complain to Aaron about it all the time and look at houses constantly on Real Tracs, it will always be the place of so many firsts and a place filled with so much love. I know when I leave I'm going to cry like a baby. It was our first house, we got our dogs here, painted together and decorated together, we brought our baby to this home, etc.
The library. I don't go that often anymore because nursing school ruined books for me, but it still holds a dear place in my heart. It's probably because my mom started taking me to story hour when I was a toddler. Also, I love the smell of a good book and the weight of it in my hand. Reading is where it is at.
My great-grandmother's house. Ah, the original Nola. She's long since passed away and her house was sold a long time ago. So many things remind me of it. I still remember the way it smells. I think of it fondly often. We usually only went to visit on holidays because her house was about two hours away from us. I remember playing with spools (she saved them so that we could build things with them), watching the Thanksgiving or Christmas parades on tv, swinging on her porch swing, feeling big because my parents would let us go to the small little market across the street to get candy, sitting on her red stool in the kitchen "helping" her cook, cooked apples, her pantry full of things she canned, and opening gifts.
Hawaii, France, Ireland & New Zealand. As Tina Fey would say, "I want to go to there." Technically, four places, but these are places that I hope to go in this lifetime. If I get to just one of them, I will be a happy girl.
The North Pole. I'm not even kidding, folks. Yes, I know it doesn't exist. I'm telling you, Christmas was almost ruined because I found out Santa wasn't real. I mean I was DEVASTATED. I love the idea of it. I wish it were real. Think of how magical it would be.
The Beach. Give me a beach, any beach and I would be happy. They make the best vacations. I'm going to one tomorrow. Word.

10 Day you challenge - Day 7

2011-08-28T15:05:00.000-05:00

Perhaps the easiest of them all!

seven wants

Not to have to go back to work. This isn't going to happen. I don't want to be a stay at home mom. I need some outlet, but the thought of working 12 hour days and missing a whole day of Nola's life makes me very sad. So much happens so quickly when they are this little.
Fall clothes. Yes, please.
A better or renovated kitchen. I hate galley kitchens. I will never have one again. I need space when people come over. Also, I need a lot more cabinet space. I have way too many kitchen gadgets, pans, etc. My kitchen stifles me.
Another date night. I'm sure we'll get one when we're in Florida.
Fall. I'm over summer. Bring on the chill, please.
A better camera. Maybe a Nikon?
A safe and nice flight to Florida. We're leaving on Tuesday evening. I pray nothing happens and Nola is really good. We went to the Flea Market all day on Friday and she was an angel, so more of that please. It's only an hour and a half flight, so fingers crossed.

10 Day you challenge - day 8

2011-08-28T14:54:00.000-05:00

Whoops! Yesterday was my mom's birthday celebration, which was held at our house. Here is day eight of the challenge, a day late.

eight fears

Mr. O dying before me. Seriously, this disturbs me to the core. Hopefully, we both have long lives in front of us.
Clowns. I never liked them and then I read Stephen King's IT when I was in the fifth grade. I remember thinking, "I knew I was right about them!"
Roller Coasters. I would love to ride them, but my body goes straight into panic attack. Shaking so violent that I can't control it. In fact, I have no control over myself when I try to ride them. My hands grip the bar and I can't make them let go until we stop.
Something happening to Nola. Good grief, no one tells you how much you'll worry about them. I'm not obsessive, but so many things could happen. She slept for eight hours on Friday night and I sat straight up and immediately checked if she was breathing.
Someone breaking into our house, while we're sleeping. Thank you, Cold Case Files.
Going bald when I'm older. Seriously, bald is never cute unless you're a dude.
Getting Alzheimer's. I see it all the time at work. No one should get it. It's horrible.
Some of the psych patients at work. I am notorious for getting psych patients. Every one at works knows it and there have been a few that have absolutely scared the bejesus out of me. You can't control or predict crazy. I've seen some crazy things.

This & That

2011-08-25T09:40:00.000-05:00

Here's a whole bunch of random things for you. I started this post last night when I couldn't go to sleep, but I did it on my blog ap, but I didn't post it, so I lost it all. Thank you for that, iPhone. You are so awesome sometimes.

Debbie Downer alert! I found out last night that one of the girls that I graduated with died this past spring. I didn't really know her, but she seemed nice. Nothing makes you think of your mortality like hearing about someone your age that died. She had melanoma, which reminds me that I've had a questionable mole for ever and keep putting off going to have it checked out. I think it's time to make that appointment now. On a side note, tanning beds are horrible. Think of how often high school students go to them. It's melanoma waiting to happen. Plus, I'm not sure if I've mentioned it before, but when starting an iv on a high schooler with really tough skin, I ask them if tan a lot because I can tell from how tough their skin is when I try to stick them.

Speaking of high school, I watched part of an episode of My So Called Life the other day. I used to love that show. I mean, do-multiple-skits-for-speech-and-drama-watch-every-episode-a-million-times-from-my-own-personal-copy-that-I-recorded-off-of-tv loved it. I watched it when it was ABC and not MTV. Yes, I was an original lover of the show. Well, let's say that you know you have grown up a lot, when you watch a show that you absolutely used to love, only to realize it's not that good at all. It was ~~boring~~ slow, dark, and just kind of depressing. If it hadn't been for Jared Leto, I might have changed the channel after a few minutes. He bought my watching the show about 15 more minutes. Who doesn't love a little Jordan Catalano eye candy? For those who want their fix, it's on the Sundance channel on Comcast. That's for you, B whoever wants to watch it.

I now have to work every other weekend again. I'm so bummed about it. I guess you can't ask to have two days a week off because your husband is in school without having some consequence. I love my job, but the thought of every other weekend and 10a-10p shifts makes me sick. I'm sending some positive energy out to have a fix for this situation. Time will tell if it happens or not.

Yesterday morning, my ipod player started playing on it's own in Nola's room. Talk about being freaked out. Luckily, Aaron was still here, so he walked around the house with a baseball bat looking for an intruder. It was probably pretty funny from the outside, not from the inside.

Every time something out of the ordinary happens, I think maybe my dad is behind it. If you knew him, he was a major prankster. I find myself saying in my head, "Very funny, dad." Aaron has even said, "That's enough, Billy," before on an occasion where weird things happened all day.

Speaking of ghosts, they say kids can see them. Well, I kind of believe that they see something because Nola will be looking up at nothing at all and start smiling and kicking her legs like something is there. It kind of freaks me out. Very funny, dad.

We're leaving for Florida next week. I still need to call customer service to find out about baby things, like strollers, bringing her car seat, etc. I am clueless. I know we have to take tons of stuff for such a little person. I've made a list and it's hella long. What a little diva!

Also, we're boarding the dogs. It's going to be like $300. Anyone want two dogs? One is playful and ~~disobedient~~ marches to the beat of her own drummer. The other one is ~~old and crotchety~~ wise and full of personality. I'll be honest on Molly. She's the weirdest and most frustrating dog that I have ever owned and I had many a dog growing up. Going once, going twice....

That's it and that's all for now.

10 day you challenge - Day 9

2011-08-25T09:05:00.000-05:00

nine loves

Mr. O & Nola. Duh. Package deal with those two.
All things cooking. Shows, recipes, cookbooks, etc.
Fashion.
Flea Markets.
Beach vacations.
Coffee.
More than 4 hour stretches of sleep.
Horror films. I'm becoming more of a wimp the older I get though.
Finding a good deal.

Sneak preview

2011-08-24T12:29:00.000-05:00

We did a little more in Nola's nursery. Here's a little preview. Hopefully, we'll have it done before I go back to work. That's our goal.

* We hung the lanterns and poofs this weekend. Ignore the bin where I'm packing away things already *

* Craptastic photo alert! If you can see anything, this is the curtain Aaron's mom made. It's really pretty in person *

* dresser and changing area *

* Up close of the bedding that Mr. O's mom made for Nola *

* Crazy hair enjoying her new mobile. Plus, up close of the inside fabric of the bedding *

* Bonus photo: Our little hoarder this morning *

10 Day you challenge

2011-08-24T12:17:00.000-05:00

I saw this on a couple of other blogs and usually I don't really like posts like this or regular weekly posts because I like to mix it up, but I think this will keep me accountable to blogging for at least the next 10 days. So enjoy!

ten secrets

Every time I hear this song, I think of the day I had Nola and of Mr. O. It was one of the songs on my labor playlist, but the lyrics are so perfect both. Nola lyrics: Yours is the first face that I saw. I think I was blind before I met you. I don't know where I am. I don't know where I've been, but I know where I want to go. Mr. O lyrics: This is the first day of my life, I'm glad I didn't die before I met you. But now I don't care I could go anywhere with you. And I'd probably be happy...and.....But I realized that I need you. And I wondered if I could come home.
I would like to just once take a shower without hearing crying through all or most of it. The shower used to be my thinking place and I miss it.
If I could do anything without the fear of going bankrupt, I would quit my job and open up a cafe/coffee house. It would be in an old house with different rooms and the food would be fantastic.
I applied for a Cancer Research Nurse position at Vanderbilt. I haven't heard anything, in like a month, so I'm not sure if I should just give up on it. I have a friend that told me it took about 3 months for her to get hired on though. I'm keeping hope alive! For those that know me, this is my dream job.
For about a week, I thought I was pregnant again. Seriously. I gained two pounds and my stomach is no longer as flat as it was a month ago. I also kept getting dizzy spells, which was exactly what I did in the beginning with Nola. I also spotted for a day. No, I didn't take a test. I'm just assuming I was wrong and paranoid about getting pregnant again. The weight gain is from the large quantities of ice cream and sugar that I've been eating. Case in point, on Monday, I had a two Reese's peanut butter cups, a nutty buddy, and a gelati from Rita's. I'm craving Dr. Pepper again. It's in my head, it's in my head, it's in my head...
Sometimes, I'm with my family and I think, how did I come from them? Wrong, yes, but if you know my family, you know there are about a million differences between us. I love them dearly, but how I became me is baffling when you compare us.
Once in high school, I was humming a song and tapping my foot in class, only to realize that it was Sally the Camel from Barney. In my defense, I used to babysit my cousins a lot.
I may have just taken a break from writing this to do a little dance to Yo Gabba Gabba for Nola.
Aaron and I want to go to Hawaii for our 10 year anniversary, which is next year. Hopefully, it really happens!
I'm in desperate need for a girl's night or lunch or just some grown up girl chatting. Feel sorry for me and ask me out.

Kids don't know how lucky they are

2011-08-22T10:46:00.000-05:00

Don't even get me started on school supplies. Those lucky little ducks. That's a whole other entry because I love me some school supplies, see here. The main reason they are lucky are new school clothes. What I wouldn't give to have a reason to get an entire new wardrobe. Kids take their back to school clothes for granted. After school is over and you're paying for your own things, don't expect to get a closet full of new clothes at the start of every late summer/early fall.

Now, as I got older, I didn't take the school clothes for granted. In fact, I bought most of my clothes myself, beginning in junior high. I felt bad asking my parents to pay for my clothes, especially when they were expensive. I remember trying to get the most for my money. Maybe that's when my thrifty ways began.

I still look forward to the August and September issues of fashion magazines. They are always the best. I may have been sporting Jncos (which were hella expensive for a high school student on a crappy job income to buy), but I was still reading up on Vogue, Seventeen, and Elle come August and September.

Maybe that's part of the reason that I love fall so much. There is a newness in the air, not to mention that nice cool breeze that takes the horrendous summer heat away. I can't wait for fall fashion season. You better believe that I'll be propped up, probably while feeding the child, scanning those magazines for ideas and, of course, reading some fashion blogs.

As part of the make-the-transition-back-to-work-go-smoothly, I've already told Aaron that I'm buying some new scrubs to wear and I ordered this lunch box. That, my friends, comforts my heart a little bit. See, old habits die hard, but I'm okay with that.

three.months.old

2011-08-19T12:20:00.000-05:00

Nola Gray is three months old! It's hard to believe that I've been home that long. My return to work is looming around the corner, three weeks from yesterday to be exact. That makes me sad. I'm going to savor every moment until then.

Here are some things that are going on in Nola's world right now.

Until the last two nights for almost two weeks, she's been sleeping 5-7 hours at night, beginning somewhere between 10:00-11:30. The last two nights have been rough. I think she must be going through a growth spurt because she wants to nurse more during the day too.
She laughed out loud last week. It was the most awesome thing ever! Of course, it was Mr. O that got her to do it. It was great because we were at my nephew's birthday party, so my family got to hear it too. We scared her because we all screamed out in delight and she looked at us like we were crazy.
She's been napping about 2-3 hrs in the morning, except this morning *sigh* and then takes two shorter naps in the afternoon/evening. I've been working hard to get a schedule down before I go back to work.
She's holding toys now. It's cute. She doesn't want to let them go. Her favorite is a toy cell phone that my mom got her.
She started pulling hair yesterday. Luckily, it was her own. She had a death grip on it though. I had to pry her hand away. Can't wait until it's my own hair, which reminds me, I need to cut all my hair off and watch out when I wear earrings.
Bath time is getting better. She hated it at first. I even got a few smiles from her in the last bath.
I've started packing away clothes. How sad is that? Newborns and some of her smaller 0-3 months are too small now.
I took her measurements this morning and got just shy of 24 inches in height, a little over 15 inches for head circumference, and 13.5 pounds in weight. FYI, she's tall, average weight, and has a small head with an extremely large brain. :)
She no longer takes a paci. Yep, she just wants me to pacifier her. That is frustrating. I guess I should be grateful that I won't have to break paci habits later.
She is talking a lot. Baby babble is adorable. It's funny because she'll get louder and louder, like why can't you understand what I'm saying.
She's a momma's girl right now. We'll see if that changes when I go back to work. Right now, she's all about me, which is so great and exhausting at the same time.
Her eyes are still blue. We know they are going to be lighter because they lightened, but whether they'll be blue, green, hazel or light brown is still up in the air. My mom said my eyes stayed blue until I was two and then went hazel. I hope we don't have to wait that long to find out her true color.
She finally likes her play gym/mat. Thank you, Misty! She'll talk her baby babble and kick her legs and arms for around 15 minutes or so before getting restless. She also will grab one of the toys that hang down and just lay there holding it.
She's absolutely adorable. See below.

The forgotten goals

2011-08-17T11:04:00.000-05:00

It dawned on me this morning that this year is fast approaching it's close. Christmas is going to be here before you know it. On a side note, I have already bought two of my nephew's Christmas gifts and a few things for Ms. Nola. I'm excited to play Santa! I remember how sad I was when I found out Santa wasn't real. That's a different story for another day though.

Back to what I was saying, this year is almost over. I just remembered this morning that I made some goals. Uh, funny thing about being pregnant and then having a baby, I don't even remember what they are. I decided I better touch base with them. Maybe in the next four months, I can salvage some of them.

I already thought of another one that I want to add for next year, but I'll hold off on that for now, so to refresh my your memory, my goals for 2011:

Goal #1: Exercise at least two times a week. This is quite funny. I did start walking toward the end of my pregnancy to try to go into labor and I have walked a few times recently, but it's so stinkin' hot out there. I'm an outdoor kind of girl when it comes to exercise. I also do better when I have a partner. I'm going to start on this hardcore though because I've gained two pounds back. I have no idea (sitting around breastfeeding all day, no real exercise, eating ice cream almost every day) how, but I was disgusted with myself. I'm planning on trying to do a pilates video today, since our stroller is in Aaron's truck and he's at work and then off to school, so I won't see him until around 8:00 or 8:30.

Goal #2: Read at least 12 books this year. I'm not sure what my total is right now, but I think I've read four books, most of which were baby books. I did get out a book the other day, so I'm hoping to start reading it. As much as I love to open a book, flip the pages, and the smell of it, I think a Kindle could come in real handy now with the whole breastfeeding thing. I still have time to make this goal happen.

Goal #3: Work on punctuality. Check! I've actually done a lot better. The baby set me back at first, until I realized you need to add a least an extra hour onto your get ready time. We actually made it to my nephew's birthday last weekend before anyone else. Word! Aaron needs to work on this too to guarantee that we make it on time.

Goal #4: Have regular date nights. We have done this all year. I love a good date night! Of course, they are little spread out with Nola now, but we still try to work them in, especially when we really need them. It's hard to believe that you can miss someone that you live with and see on a daily basis, but it happens when things like school, baby time, and life get in the way. We had our last date night a few weeks ago. I'm thinking we need another one soon!

Goal #5: Keep up with blogging or writing. Sigh. I'm trying to do better on this one, but to find the time has been hard. My child in the last week has finally started taking naps that are longer than 30 minutes. This has really helped me out with housework and blogging. I'm planning on starting her journal too. I hate that I'm just now starting it, but I have been working on her baby book, if that makes up for it any.

Goal #6: Take a vacation more than once. I'm not sure if this one will happen. We are going to Florida at the end of this month. Yes, we are flying with a baby. Fingers crossed she's in a good mood that day. Also, we went to Gatlinburg last October (has it really been almost a year ago?!) and may go again this year (B, do you still want to go?), but I'm not sure I can leave Nola yet. We'll have to see.

Goal #7: Be the best parent I can be and to accept when things don't go perfectly. I had a hard time with this one at first, but I'm going with the flow now. It's too stressful to put that much pressure on yourself.

Goal #8: Freeze at least 10 meals before the baby arrives. I think I had five or six meals frozen. I didn't quite make it to ten, but having some meals frozen was great, especially after Aaron's mom left. She was our chef for three weeks. I think I only cooked two or three times while she was here.

Goal #9: Finish all the unfinished projects in the house and start on the new ones (the nursery, new carpet, fence and kitchen remodel). Ha! This requires my husband. We haven't finished the nursery, but it's almost done. Aaron promised me that we would work on it this weekend. I told him that it has to be done before I go back to work. As for the new carpet, fence, and kitchen remodel, we decided to hold off on that, even though we have the money in savings, due to the fact that I was not getting a pay check for most of my maternity leave. I think that was actually a pretty wise choice. Once I go back and start getting regularly paid, we'll start with the home improvement projects.

Goal #10: Live more in the moment. I've learned that this one is hard. I'm so worried about going to work that every time I think about it I remind myself that I'm not going back that day and to not think about it. It's hard for the planner in me to just live in the moment. I will say for the last week or so, I have enjoyed every bit of my time with Nola. Some days, I sit all day on the couch with her or in the floor with her and talk to her and play with her. I'm going to miss this when I go back. She learns something new every day and it's so amazing to see!

Goal #11: Work on the outside of our house. This one is a major fail. Our poor plants look horrible and my herbs and the flowers I planted died. Not to make more excuses, but having a baby at home was way harder than I had imagined and poor Aaron has had school three nights a week, not to mention working every day. We actually got a letter from our home owner's association last month because our grass was insanely tall. Whoops. There is always next year for this one.

As you can see, I have pretty much failed, but with this little reminder, I have time for some redemption. I plan to make as much happen as I can.

On the O table

2011-08-16T15:45:00.000-05:00

I haven't done a menu entry in a while, so here's what's happening in the O kitchen this week, including what I've already made. It's nice to finally want to cook again, even with a screaming baby for part of the time.

Sunday - Turkey burgers with blueberries and peaches & pasta salad
Monday - Crockpot Italian Beef & pasta salad
Tuesday - Leftovers
Wednesday - Ground turkey and wild rice skillet
Thursday - Fish tacos with lime-cilantro slaw & mexican rice
Friday - Leftovers and/or out
Saturday - Grilled pork chops, quinoa pilaf, and brussel sprouts

A pair shorts and a love story

2011-08-15T09:40:00.000-05:00

This morning, Nola decided to get up at 5:00 a.m. and the she had a massive amount of spit up all exocorist style. Not cool, little girl, not cool.   It was so bad that we both had to change clothes and the burp cloth caught a lot of it. Nothing says love like sharing massive amounts of bodily fluids before your brain even registers that you are awake.

On a plus note, I've eaten breakfast, dinner is in the crock pot, and the kitchen is clean. I guess getting up this early does have some advantages. She's now passed out in her car seat on the kitchen table. Don't judge me people! She actually likes her car seat better than her bouncy seat. I know, such a weirdo.

What stirred me to write this morning? A pair of shorts. Yes, because when I sleepily walked over to my pajama drawer to change out of my newly-soiled clothes, I pulled out the first pair of shorts that I saw, which happened to be shorts that I bought a day before I went to Gatlinburg with Aaron in December 2000. Yes, Walmart specials that were like $3. Let me just say, they still are in perfect condition. Take that name brand clothing! I will also say they are the most unflattering things ever and look like they are part of school gym uniform. Don't you love a good high wasted short? It's a good thing I was like 10 pounds lighter then.

The shorts brought back a flood of great memories. It reminded me of where we started out and how we got to where we are now. I've almost gotten rid of the shorts a million times, but I just can't seem to do it.  Who knew I'd have emotional attachement to a $3 clearance item?

So, I figured I would write the story of where we began. It may bore you to death, but I'll walk around in a love-induced haze all day in my 11 year old, unflattering shorts feeling like a million dollars!

Who knew when my now sister-in-law was trying to fix me up with her brother that he would be the love of my life? I sure as heck didn't. I kept telling her that I wouldn't date her brother becuase if I didn't like him, then she would get mad and not talk to me anymore and I didn't want to lose her as a friend. It might help if I told you that they were super close. In fact, the day I meet him, he came to Dillard's, where we both worked, because the two of them were going to dinner and movie together.

I refused to even meet him, so she sprang it on me like minutes before he came up to our department. I tried to go hide in the luggage department. Yes, I really did, but she marched him over to me anyways. Later, Aaron told me that he was mad that she insisted on him coming in because he didn't want to meet me that day because he hadn't shaved or showered. I'm grateful for her persistence, but we both wanted to kill her that day.

So, there we all stood next to the luggage. I can't remember all of the conversation, but I remember talking about school and finding out that we were both Biology majors.   I also remember my dear sister-in-law saying, "Wow, do you feel the sparks? There is definitely chemistry here." My cheeks just got flushed thinking about that moment again. She's very lucky that I didn't do bodily harm to her later for that comment.

Fast forward a day or two. Aaron called up to Dillard's to ask me out. I was awaiting his call because, Amara, the pesky friend and sister, told me he was calling to ask me on a date and told me that I would say yes.  The kicker is, that when he called, a customer answered the phone and pretended to be me. I can not make this stuff up. I was standing talking to a coworker, who said my name, and this couple did a walk of shame over to me. The lady says, "Are you Renee?" I said yes reluctantly because I had no clue who these people were. She proceeded to say, "I did something bad" and told me that they were looking around in cookware when the phone rang, no one was around, so she answered it. It was Aaron, who asked for me, and the lady said, "This is she," so Aaron asked her out, and she actually asked him to call her back, so that she could think about it. Thanks a lot, lady!

My first thought was not, there goes the love of my life, but instead, Amara is going to kill me. I never thought that he would call back, but luckily he did, and I explained the situation. I could tell that he didn't really believe me, (really, who would believe that story) but he asked me out anyways. It was Thursday, he asked me out for Friday. I already had plans, but instead of telling him, for fear he would just say forget it, I asked him to come along with one of my friends and I to see a local band play.

What I didn't tell him was I went to every show that this band had because I had the biggest crush on the lead singer? Can you say groupie? I mean, not a little crush, like follow the band around for more than a year. In my head, I thought one date to appease my friend and then on to dating that lead singer.

The date was interesting to say the least. My friend got totally trashed, so I spent the night chasing her around and making sure she didn't get in trouble. I don't know why fate didn't want us together, but she tried her best to mess everything up, including sending my crush over to hand deliver a flyer to me for the next show.

Do you know what I remember the most of that first date? It isn't the intentional-step-in-front-of-my- date-to-hand-me-a-flyer-to-the-next-show move that the crush made or the constantly looking for my drunken friend who managed to disappear on me all night like she was ninja. It wasn't the the drive to the date where my friend was flipping through Aaron's cd case (Aaron had gone into a gas station, leaving the two of us in his truck), and looked at me and said, "This is never going to work," based on his musical taste. Nor was it, my own thoughts of him being cute, but not my type when he picked me up for the date. What I remember the most about our date, was that after knowing him for a few hours, at one point in the date, I was leaning against him and his arms were around my waist and it was most comfortable feeling in the world, that I feel asleep with my head on his shoulder on the drive home, and that when the crush handed me the flyer, I remember thinking, "Okay, I got the flyer. You can move on now" because he stood what seemed like forever with inches between us. Not only these things, but I kissed him. I never kissed anyone on the first date. It was my thing. I just didn't do it, but that night, I couldn't help myself.

I should have known with all these things that something big was happening. If not these things, then the fact that our second date lasted from 10:30 a.m. to 11:00 p.m. We went Christmas shopping for his family, went to lunch, a movie, to dinner, and then I came back to his house, where he insisted I come in and meet his mother.   Did I mention we held hands almost the entire time?

So, where do the shorts tie in, you're wondering?   Our third date. On our third date, I met all of his friends at a Christmas party. Little did I know, Aaron was planning on asking me to go to Gatlinburg with him and a handful of them, but before he could, his friends actually asked me to go with them (shout out to Lea and Terri!). He was so mad that they asked me before he could. After they told him they had asked me to go, he actually drug me out of the apartment into the breezeway and asked me if I would like to go to Gatlinburg with him. I said, "Yes, of course," and then he kissed me...and then his friends opened the door cheering because they had watched the whole thing through the peep hole in the door.

Now, enter the shorts. So being a poor college student, I had no money at all. With what little money that I did have, I went to Wal-mart and picked up some new pajamas from the clearance racks, so at least, I would look good for him at night. No, not lingerie, some high-waisted, ill-fitting gym shorts and another pair of plain gray cotton shorts. It must have been love for him to stick around!

What followed after that trip was a whirlwind of dates and time spent together. Some highlights: A date to a now-closed cajun restaurant where we consumed a whole bottle of wine and had trouble walking out together (need I mention that I had never had wine before), many nights with him teaching me how to play pool and hanging out at a pool hall, him abruptly pulling over in an empty parking lot on the way home one night to ask me if I wanted to date exclusively, lying under a star-filled sky at a soccer field, time spent watching movies with his family, and talking to him on the phone until the wee hours of the morning, when he absolutely hated talking on the phone.

We moved in together after eight months, were engaged at a year, and got married 10 months after that. The rest is history.

I found my soulmate in a sea of millions. I love him even more now than I did in the beginning or when I said, "I do," almost 9 years ago. When he kisses me, I still get tingles from the top of head down to my toes. So, I'm going to hold on to these horrible shorts because they remind me of how lucky I am that I've had almost 11 years to live this life with my best friend by my side.

New in rotation

2011-08-12T10:01:00.000-05:00

There's a new song on rotation at the O House, "Cranky Town." It surpassed "Hungry Thighs" for the number one slot this week. We might be dorks, but we can't hear your name calling over the fun times we are having over here.

These are the days of my life

2011-08-12T09:52:00.000-05:00

Here are the reasons that my brain cells have committed suicide, since I've been on maternity leave:

. Toddlers & Tiaras .

. America's Next Top Model .

. 19 Kids & Counting .

. Grey's Anatomy .

. Cold Case Files .

. Chopped .

. The Game Show Network .

. House Hunters .

. My First Place .

. Property Virgins .

. Food Truck Race .

. What Not to Wear .

. Mystery Diagnosis .

. Trauma: Life in the ER .

. Millionaire Matchmaker .

I really need to pick up a book or something. On the plus side, I have learned the following things:

I know what a flipper is. I am not proud of this.
I'm pretty good at Lingo, Family Feud, and Who Wants to Be a Millionaire.
Home inspections are a must when shopping for a house.
How to smile with my eyes. Thanks, Tyra!
How to kill someone and almost get a way with it.
Birth control is a good thing.
When looking through your pantry, don't underestimate what your lack of groceries can make. You can be a McGyver in your kitchen.
How not to do CPR, if you want someone to live. Thank you, Grey's Anatomy!
First time home buyers think they can have the world on a limited budget.
If I were a millionaire, I'd find my own damn date.
Multiple diseases that I will probably never see, but I'll be prepared if I do!
Stacey and Clinton are saving the world, one person at a time.

Speaking of really bad television, here's a conversation I had with my nephew, Hayden, recently:

Hayden (to Nola): You better not get pregnant when you are sixteen.

Me to Nola: Yeah, listen to your cousin.

Me to Hayden: Why in the world would you say that?

Hayden: You know, like the show, Sixteen and Pregnant.

Me: Oh. You watch that show?

Hayden: Sometimes.

Hayden: Have you seen the one where they are pregnant in prison. That one is pretty good too.

Me (in my head): Must talk to my sister about this ASAP.

Hair club for women

2011-08-12T09:22:00.000-05:00

I'm losing my hair by the hands full. I didn't even realize my hair had gotten thicker when I was pregnant. For those of you that have seen my hair, you know that I don't have any. Seriously. I may need to become a member of a club soon, if you know what I'm saying. My head has a weird shape. Don't think I can pull off the whole bald style.

Stags are for real

2011-08-06T13:36:00.000-05:00

Remember this picture I posted of my stag bookend?

Well, lookie what was on Secrets of a Stylist last week.

{source Emily Henderson's blog}

Do you see them? They are larger than my bookend, but it just shows how Emily Henderson should come and help me out with a room in my house. It would be like I was the decorator only infinitely better because I never follow through, which is why ~~most of~~ all of the rooms in my house are only partially done. If only, the show wasn't only based out of California. Boo.

Lovely things in July

2011-08-03T15:39:00.000-05:00

Is anyone tired of walking out the front door and feeling like a cloth is being put across your face, all kidnapping/chloroform style. It's suffocatingly hot out there. I'm longing for a cool breeze, falling leaves and pumpkins. In between bringing on the heat and sweat, July offered up some smile worthy things. One more summer month down and one more go.

. my sister welcoming her sweet little peanut, Kylie Jayde .

. having hang time with Hayden while Tiff was in the hospital .

. fireworks, family, and cheeseburgers .

. hanging with my sister, while everyone else worked .

. gelatis from Rita's Italian Ice .

. three more pounds until I reach pre-Nola weight .

. celebrating beautiful Audra's birthday .

. lunches with Mr. O .

. successful shopping trips with Nola (i believe she's a shopper) .

. good news at Nola's two month checkup. She's in the 75% for height..how did that happen? Jules she and miles can date for sure now. :) .

. CPR recertification .

. introducing Nola to my coworkers .

. good news (hopefully) on the job front (i'll blog about this soon) .

. coffee, coffee, and sweet coffee .

. pineapple red curry .

. date nights .

. True Blood and Project Runway .

. Pinterest .

. Nola discovering Sophie and Molly .

. actually getting out of pajamas the majority of the time .

. celebrating my sister and Kylie at her shower .

. lunch dates with my mom .

. finding out Gwen Stefani will have a children's line at Target this fall .

. ice cream in coffee .

Slacking, much?

2011-08-03T15:04:00.000-05:00

Seriously, I can't seem to balance out everything right now. I keep wanting to blog and thinking about all these thoughts and things that are blog worthy, but I'm either too tired, it's 3:00, 4:00, or 5:00 a.m. and I'm breastfeeding, I have a million other things to do or I have my Nola girl attached to me and she really doesn't like computer time. I keep telling her to give it a try and it'll grow on her, but no dice so far.

My baby girl is 11 weeks old today. Seriously, time is flying by. She's doing much better at night, however, she still doesn't want to go down until like midnight. She's a tiny party animal. I was always a night owl until the last few years, so I think maybe she's just taking after me. Anyone with any suggestions on how to remedy this situation is much appreciated. That is, anything, but the cry it out method. I can't do it. Hearing her cry is like nails on a chalk board. I swear, my brain is like, "Do something, do something, do something!"

We're slowly figuring out this parenting thing at the O house, so things are slowly getting back to normal. I made meatloaf, maple-glazed carrots, and green beans on Monday night. I had a screaming baby for most of it, but it felt good to catch a glimmer and feel like my pre-baby self. I think that part of the parenting thing is figuring out who you are now. If you're like me, you want to morph your former self with being a mom. I could never just be a mom or wife. Those are just two things on a list of things that define who I am. Kudos, to the people who bend over backwards and give up what they love for the little people in their life. I may eat my words later, but I have to have some outlet for myself too.

Hopefully, I'll be blogging more often now that things are settling down. I'll leave you with a picture I took yesterday. Can you handle all that cuteness?

I sold out

2011-07-08T06:40:00.001-05:00

Yes, I sold out to Shutterfly by posting that last entry of Nola's birth announcement. It was all for a $10 off coupon for my next purchase. Extreme Couponing here I come! It doesn't hurt anyone to display a really adorable baby every now and again though!

P.S. This is coming from a blogging app on my phone, so it's not my fault if it's completely messed up when I post. I'm hoping it works, so I can do something productive during feedings. Fingers crossed.

Stationery card

2011-07-07T14:01:00.001-05:00

Dulcet Wreath Birth Announcement

Shutterfly cards for Valentine's Day, Easter & Father's Day.

View the entire collection of cards.

Hungry Thighs

2011-06-29T20:24:00.000-05:00

Aaron and I always make up songs for everything. You better believe we've sung a mean song about diaper changing. One of the most famous (to us anyways) songs we sing is Hungry Thighs. You guessed it, sung to the tune of Hungry Eyes. We sing it because both of our thighs rub together. Even though, I've always been thin or average, my dang thighs touch. This evening, on mine and Nola's walk, you better believe I was singing it in my head as my thighs tried to devour my shorts. Poor Nola is doomed to sing it too.

I'm cutting myself off

2011-06-29T18:30:00.000-05:00

From what, you may ask? First off, let me start out by saying that I have watched more tv in the past 6 weeks than I have in the past 6 months. Nursing school sort of did away with my love of television because I never got to watch it anyways. Slowly, over the past two years, since nursing school (can you believe I've been an RN for 2 years?!) I've stopped watching more and more shows. You can ask Aaron, even when I'm watching tv, I'm reading a magazine, folding laundry, clipping coupons, etc.

Well now, with the whole breastfeeding thing, I have to fill my time with something. I can only do so much looking on the internet, reading blogs, and playing Angry Birds and Words with Friends. So, what have I filled my time with you ask? The answer is Cold Case Files and I've officially freaked myself out. It's a heck of a lot better than soap operas. I really place the blame on Oprah. She left me with nothing to watch.

Last week, I watched an episode of CCF and, of course, it was about a women at her sister's house cleaning with her toddler at the table eating cheerios, who was taken and murdered while the child was left there. Hmm, I'm at home alone with my child all day and this women was taken in the daytime. Then, to make matters worse, yesterday's episode had two nurses that were taken, raped, and stabbed to death. Nice.

I'm sure you can picture me lying in bed last night wide awake while my baby was asleep. Yes, a perfect time for me to be asleep too, except, I swear I saw a shadow in the closet and could hear something in the front room. Should I mention that I have two dogs that pretty much bark at anything? Yep, they would have been barking if anyone was there, but, that's right, the second episode (yes, they play two in a row) yesterday, the victim's dog was murdered too. It's like CCF knows how to get into my head.

Laugh all you want, but this is the same person that used to watch horror films and then walk through a dark house and not turn a single light on and who used to read books on serial killers. Don't think I'm weird. I used to want to do forensics before shows like CSI even existed. Looks like that career would have turned out splendidly with me sleeping with the light on and a weapon.

You know, I should have known this would happen. Aaron used to play poker on Wednesday nights and I was home by myself until 11:00 p.m. or later. I started watching Criminal Minds..and I'm sure you know how that turned out. I even called him one night because I got a strange prank call and I swear I saw my life pass before my eyes.

So, I'm cutting myself off. No more crime shows when I'm home by myself and no true crime shows at all. I've become weak in my "old" age. My former 20 year-old forensic loving self would just shake her head in shame.

Neglect..

2011-06-28T18:59:00.000-05:00

I've been somewhat distracted by the new boss in town.

My poor herbs are dying...is it lack of water or lack of love?

These used to be flowers.

I haven't read a magazine in months.

Laundry doesn't put itself away, nor do beds make themselves.

Will you please walk me?

Um, you forgot to feed me. Hello!?

Motherhood, the first month

2011-06-28T18:31:00.000-05:00

I naively went into motherhood with the idea that there would be this cuddly baby that loved you unconditionally, was fun to play with, and any experience with our nieces and nephews would make this whole motherhood thing a piece of cake. I got the wake up call pretty quickly that this was not going to be a walk in the park.

It's a lot harder than I could have ever imagined. It's by far the hardest job I have ever had. It makes me want to call my momma almost every day and say, "Thank you so much." Thanks for having me, for staying up with me and getting no sleep, for enduring tears and screaming, for allowing me to cover you with my bodily excretions, and for my coming out in the end feeling loved, secure, and happy. It blows my mind that my mother was only 17 when she had me, she was basically a single parent, and I was colicky. I don't know how in the world she did it. My momma is pretty amazing.

There are days when I'm covered in spit up and breast milk, I've only slept for 4 1/2 hours of interrupted sleep, and where tears, not the baby's, are part of my day. I should have known that we had ourselves a firecracker when she came into the world screaming. She's my little angry bird. Nola wants to be held all the time and on my breast constantly. I am an open buffet all day long. Your body is definitely no longer yours. Some days all I want is to shower and it doesn't happen at all or not until late at night.

She fights sleep like no other baby I have ever seen. Make that, no other toddler, that I have seen. One night she went to bed at 10:30, which is amazing, but woke up around 12:30 and then stayed up until 3:30. Her eyes would close and she would immediately start crying. She spends a lot of the day fussing. I have honestly thought, "This child is miserable and hates us." Absurd, I know. Things like this are bound to happen when you are sleep deprived and slowly moving towards delirium.

Those are the bad days. I'm not trying to scare any soon-to-be moms out there. I'm just being honest. I think the lack of honesty sets up other women for a false sense of what it's like in the beginning. Now, I know, some people have it easier than others. If you do have it easy, please don't tell all your new mother friends how good you have it. Trust me, they won't like it. Like my mother-in-law, who had babies who slept through the night at 4 weeks old and who had ample amounts of breast milk that just flowed with ease, and has told me all of this one hundred times. I love her to death, but I swear, I have never wanted to punch someone in the face so much. I finally told her that I'm happy for her, but after talking with other mothers, I know she was just very lucky. There's no need to rub that in my face. Your babies (sorry, honey!) were just weird. Also, I think the bad times (like labor and my almost 4th degree tearing and episotomy which faded almost instantly when I saw my baby girl) fade out of your mind because the love you feel is just incredible.

There are good days. The days when your baby is crying and all you have to do is get into sight or talk and they hear your voice and instantly are soothed. Aaron has called me the baby whisperer on more than one occasion. I'm no magician. My girl just knows her momma. That love is so beyond anything I have ever felt. It's beyond anything you can imagine. This love is so huge that it can't be contained in your body. It's living and breathing little person that you can grab hold of.

For all the standing up in the kitchen inhaling your food because it may be your only opportunity to eat and your child is psychic and knows when you are about eat and for all the sleepless nights or constant consoling of tears, there is the tiny hand that grips your finger and holds on for dear life. For all the unbathed days you spend covered in spit up and poop, there is a baby that sighs with happiness as she latches on to your breast. Do I need to even mention the baby smell? It's sent from heaven. I wish I could bottle it because I would be a millionaire. For all the bad days, there is the cooing and baby talk, smiling (if only in their sleep), and watching their eyes widen while discovering new things, like the ceiling fans. Being the first to see them discover everything for the first time is pretty amazing. Nola laughed in her sleep the other day and I just about died. Just so you know, it takes one of these things to counter act an entire bad day or, for that matter, turn a bad day into a good day.

My world has morphed into all things Nola. Gone, if only temporarily, is our life of picnics, bike rides, going out for a beer or a jog or an afternoon movie on a whim, but in it's place is something so much more rewarding. We are no longer a pair, but a trio. And years from now, when you mention this blog entry, I'll deny it or say something, "Like I think you've mistaken, it was never bad," because my baby girl will wrap her arms around my neck and say, "I love you, mommy," and all those bad things will fade and I'll only remember a cooing baby, who wrapped her little fingers around mine and sighed when ever she was near me.

Sharing the love

2011-06-28T16:35:00.000-05:00

Even more things that I love. I know, I have a lot of love. So don't worry your pretty heads, there is plenty to go around. I also have a lot of time to look on the internet, since I'm an open buffet for 5 or more hours a day. Thank you, iphone and computer for saving my sanity.

a mix of bracelets, watches, and whatever else will fit on your wrist at one time.

{via what I wore}

As if Nola doesn't have enough headbands, which she doesn't, here are some I love.

{via lou and lee etsy shop}

{via patti cake boutique etsy shop}

{via lou and lee etsy shop}

Poptails are genius. If I ever throw another dinner party/cookout, these will be on the menu.

{via endless simmer}

Jimmy Fallon and Cameron Diaz during other voices on his show. I laughed so hard.

{via YouTube}

Speaking of tv, how about JT on SNL. Hilarious.

{via YouTube}

Pandora Radio. Yes, I do love it, except when it plays Rihanna. Seriously, how many Rihanna songs do I have to tell it that I don't like before it stops playing them. I have no idea how she is even on there, unless it might be my Nelly station (B, you know what's up).

Summer fashion

2011-06-25T23:11:00.000-05:00

Due to the fact that I am taking a full 16 weeks off of work, I will not be getting any new summer clothes. I know what you are thinking, how will you make it through? It'll be hard, but I'll try. Here are some outfits that I'm loving. Please run out and buy them or something like them, so that I can live vicariously through you.

{a cute summer outfit via polyvore}

{a cute summer outfit via little tin soldier}

{a cute summer outfit via my corner of the universe}

{a cute spring/summer outfit via atlantic-pacific}

{a cute summer/fall outfit via atlantic-pacific}

{a cute summer/fall outfit via Kelly Murray}

Can't wait to put Nola in this outfit. I may have to bend some rules for her wardrobe.

{a cute outfit via the baby blackbird}

Things I'm loving right now

2011-06-25T22:49:00.000-05:00

Lately, I've tried some things that have been amazing. I figured, I should share the love for them. Try them, you will like them.

Essex. Have you been here yet? My friend, Christy, told me that I had to go for baby things. Aaron and I had already been once and we thought it was dirty and junky. We had not planned on going back. Well, I decided, with the impending baby, to give it a try. Oh my goodness, you must go! Now, you'll have to dig. I spent an hour and half in there the first day, but it was so worth it. We ended up taking some of the things that we got back to Babies R Us and using the credits for other things, since we found some of the items dirt cheap. As for instance, we found a different, but similar pattern, of our car seat and the extra base for around $104. My mother-in-law, with coupons, had bought our car seat and extra base for $180 at Babies R Us. The key is to look at the dates on the price tags. If it's been there a certain amount of days, then it's even cheaper because they take off different percentages based on the length of time it's been in stock. Aaron, Mr. I-hate-shopping, loves that place. Here are some of the steals that we found:

Our Ergobaby carrier, listed at $114.99 at Babies R Us. We got it for $63.99.

The Graco Snap and Go, $74.99 at Babies and $21.99 at Essex

(We got lucky on this one. It had been there over 40 days, so it was 40% off)

Uppababy G-Luxe Stroller, $189.99 on Amazon and $87.99 at Essex.

This was another steal it was 50% of it's price tag of $173.99. I love, love, love it!

My brest friend, $47.99 at Babies and $25.99 at Essex

I started out with a Boppy, but honestly, I couldn't get comfortable with it because it doesn't support a baby who can't hold their neck in the right position. This does.

Snug Bunny Bouncer. Aaron's aunt paid $64 at Target and we got it at Essex for $35.

Beaba food storage for baby food, $25 at Babies $13 at Essex

These are just some of things. I've gotten things like Bassinet sheets, a Sophie the giraffe teether, the Bumbo play tray, my breastfeeding cover, etc. for major deals. I love this store because I love saving money!

Gwenyth Paltrow's new cookbook. I checked it out at the library this week. Now, I know she probably had a lot of help from her celebrity chef friends, but the cookbook is good. I like that she uses natural and good for you food, not to mention, most of dishes are things that I would definitely make. I can't wait to try some of them out. I'm going to add this to my Christmas list.

Bravado nursing bras and tanks at Target. They are so much more comfortable than the Gillian O'Malley ones I bought, which aren't bad at all for the price, but I should have just coughed up the extra for the Bravado ones in the beginning. They will rock your world.

Secrets of a Stylist. I love this show! I watched Design Star the season that Emily Henderson, the host, won. She was instantly my favorite. I love just about everything she does. She mixes new and old. That's my kind of stylist. Plus, she has a great sense of fashion. I would wear just about everything that she does. We both have a penchant for plaid button up shirts. I just discovered that she has a blog, so now I'm following that too.

My labor play list. Seriously, I can not get enough. You should download some of the songs. You will love it.

one. month. old

2011-06-24T19:26:00.000-05:00

Here's a photographic tour of Nola's first month. It's been a whirlwind. I still can't believe it's been that long. It feels like I was in the hospital just yesterday.

Anxiously, and now well medicated, awaiting her arrival

Moments after she was born

She arrived screaming and was still screaming when they were "working" on her

when she was laid on my chest after she was assessed

in the nursery being checked out

Oh my, I don't look good because the pain medicine made me so sick

with cousin, Maddie, one of her many visitors

first family photo..getting ready to leave the hospital

daddy's girl

in her car seat ready to go home

my mom with Nola

Esther visiting Nola

one.month.old

Beaz visiting Nola

at one of our many doctor's visits

on the way to one of our many doctor's appointments

sleepy love bug

Wide awake

What's that, Mom?

with her boxing gloves on

just chillin' with her favorite toy

one of my favorites

one month check up

thumbs up from dad on the weight gain

just like daddy (Aaron is going to kill me!)

worn out from grocery shopping

passed out

Most boring post ever

2011-06-21T12:41:00.000-05:00

I now judge how my day is going by three things, have I showered, eaten, and/or taken a nap. Today, I have already showered and eaten, so it's turning out to be a pretty awesome day! I also got 5 1/2 hours of sleep last night. I can't wait until it's 5 1/2 hours of consecutive sleep. Now, that would be amazing!

I swear, this will not turn into a blog just about my baby. You guys will just have to bear with me for now because, let's face it, I'm knee deep in all things baby and not much else. I mean, I spend Monday-Wednesday at home with just the two of us until 8:30 P.M. when Aaron gets home from school. That's a long time to go three days in a row with hardly any adult contact, so if anyone would like to come over on those days, please feel free to stop on by, but just know that I may not be showered.

At this point, I'm basically just a walking, human meal tray for our little bird. She's feeding like an hour at a time. Seriously. The feedings are like every three hours, instead of two now, though, so that's one positive. I usually slip in a bottle at some point, so that I can pump, have a free moment, or to let Mr. O feel more involved with feedings.

I'm planning on running some errands today. Of course, today would be a day full of thunderstorms. Wish me luck. It'll be our first trip out alone together. I had Aaron's mom's help for the first few weeks. I'm hoping to at least go to two of the places on my list today. I have big plans to do a little ~~extreme~~ couponing for some deals.

Speaking of that show, does make anyone else get mad that they take all the deals or that stores are now changing there coupon policies because of those crazy people? I mean, I'm all for saving and using coupons, I've been doing it for years, but 500 tubes of toothpaste is beyond ridiculous. Their teeth are going to fall out before they use all of that! Oh yeah, if you guys have any diaper coupons, send them my way. Hey, at least I'm not dumpster diving for them in my $100+ plus blue jeans like the girl I saw on that show the other day. I still have my dignity.

Okay, this was beyond boring, but now you have an idea of what's been going on with me. Yeah, not that much.

Who's your daddy?

2011-06-21T12:15:00.000-05:00

Happy Father's Day to the love of my life! This guy is not only the best husband, but he's pretty much the best daddy around! I could already tell he would be a good dad because of the way he is with my nieces and nephews. Case in point, I arrived solo at my family's house not to long ago. My nephew, Hayden, ran up and gave me and hug and then looked around and asked, "Where's uncle Aaron?" I told him that he couldn't make it. This statement was followed by Hayden saying, "Great. Who I am going to play with now?" When, my niece, Ava lived with us, I was definitely her favorite. I mean, we had dance parties, tea parties, read books, and I watched her baby why she went to the store and work. Now, you can forget me, she is Aaron's girl all the way. It's the cutest thing when she sees him. Her face lights up and she runs to him to give him a hug all why screaming, "Uncle Aaron!"

I can already tell that Nola will be a daddy's girl. Nothing calms her down like being on his chest with her head resting on his shoulder. It is amazing how much your love can grow by watching your husband with your child. I can't wait to watch Nola grow up with him. Here's hoping that she loves roller coasters, water slides, amusement parks, and camping. All things that I do not like, so that her daddy has a playmate. He deserves one.

Monthly May Tales

2011-06-11T15:46:00.000-05:00

Forgive me, this list will be short. I'm not even sure what happened before Nola was born. May was more awesome than this list shows. How could it not, we welcomed our baby to the world!

. Nola's birthday, May 18 .

. having my mom and husband with me in my hospital room .

. Courtney Helton Photography .

. having my first sub sandwich after Nola was born (not so good was seeing it again the next day, blah) .

. having my mother-in-law's help during the first weeks .

. getting my shower gifts from my work, even though I didn't get to go .

. having my boss call and check in and bring said shower gifts to my house .

. the full moon (I believe the hype now) .

. celebrating mother's day at my house with my family .

. seeing Aaron bawl like a baby when he held Nola for the first time .

. finally shaking Nola's jaundice .

. Qdoba naked burritos .

. co-sleeping with a baby (I know I said I'd never do this) .

. perfecting my roasted vegetable lasagna .
. making two Target trips and having Nola sleep through them .
. milkshakes from Baskin Robbins and a million other places .
. chicago dogs .
. fitting back into most of my clothes .
. having a lady at Target tell me I look incredible to have a one week old .
. Fisher Price...I love you guys! .
. Calypso St.Barth line at Target .
. getting a mother's day card and gift from Mr. O and not expecting it .
. having a great nurse, who did get somewhat annoyed with me, during delivery .
. having enough gift cards to get my breast pump .
. moving the dresser up and getting things done in the nursery .
. having people cover my shifts at work, just in case .
. cicadas..yeah, just kidding .
. having lovely friends stop in to visit and bring food .

When to say no to vacuuming

2011-06-11T14:54:00.000-05:00

This is the back of my sweet baby's head taken when the damage done by the FOUR vacuum attempts during delivery had started to heal. She only has a few scabs left now, three weeks later.
In hindsight, I would have said no to the vacuum, but I was a little out of it at the time. Next time, delivery will be different. That's for sure!

Things motherhood has already taught me

2011-06-11T13:57:00.003-05:00

I can shower and shave (maybe not the perfect shave job) and be completely clean in ten minutes tops. Hey, when ten minutes is all you have, then you (in the words of Tim Gunn) make it work!
Make-up is no longer a requirement, but merely a suggestion. So far, no one has screamed when they have seen my unmade up face out and about. Now mind you, I will still have a decent outfit on. No mom jeans for this girl. Hells to the no.
I can eat my entire dinner with one hand. Sometimes it's my right (dominant) hand and sometimes it's with my left hand. Who knew I was ambidextrous this whole time?
I only thought I was multi-tasking before. Um, I'm feeding the baby while I type this. I'm trying to figure out how to get everything done. It is a challenge. Housework is going to be a........to fit in.
When I have showered, eaten, and had a nap, I feel like I am ~~king~~ queen of the world. Yes, that was a sad reference to the Titantic. Might I add that I've never seen this movie in it's entirety. Do you remember dating and "watching" a movie? Yeah, this is one that I "watched" with a date. For the record, I've never seen Forrest Gump either. How unamerican is that!?
I owe Fisher Price big time for saving my sanity up to this point. Baby girl, does not want to be put down, but she'll sit here for about an hour and she'll stop crying and will sometimes fall asleep to this. Fisher Price knows what kids/babies like. I'm hoping when she's a little bit bigger she will also love this. Right now, it's just a-ight for her. For any expectant mothers out there, these are must haves!
Sex is all I can think about when I'm told I can't have it for six weeks. Even sleep deprived and extremely tired, I am still a hormone-raging teen aged boy. Yes, you guys wanted to know that.
Being spit up on, screamed (this child can wail!) at, woken up at all hours and pooped/peed on all goes out the window with one little smile and my gosh, those dimples. There is no way that I'd let anyone else get away with what this child gets away with.
You will get peed on, numerous times regardless of how you think you won't and have diaper changing down.
Huggies are not as good as Pampers.
You will allow things that you would never allow before. The other day I looked down and realized I had poop on my arm. I have no idea when it happened or how long it had been there, but I just shrugged my shoulders. Normally, I would have been grossed out and would need to shower.
Speaking of poop, breastfeeding poop is the best. Seriously, hardly any smell. You know, I'm a nurse, so I have had plenty of encounters with poop. I should know good poop when I see it.
If you have an iPhone, you should definitely have this app, if you have a newborn. It keeps up with everything for you. We've had to go back and forth to the doctor and every time they want to know how long she's feeding and how many wet/dirty diapers she's having. This app tells me everything! I love it. It was well worth the $5 price tag. Plus, I can download any of the info into spreadsheets, if the doctor needs to see them.
Having my mother-in-law here, though it scared the crap out of me to think about beforehand, was a huge blessing. Otherwise, my house would be shambles and I would have never eaten. She constantly had food in my face to eat. Now, I'm lucky if I eat two meals and one snack a day. Letting someone help you is good a thing not a bad thing. You can't do everything yourself. Also, we ended up with this awesome drying mat, a new coffee grinder, yellow crib sheets, a new spatula, groceries for three weeks, a painted upstairs bathroom, and the curtain hung in the nursery. Let's give it up to my in-laws. They really know how to be spectacular guests!
Date nights are even better now. We're going on another one on Wednesday night. We're going to see Cirque du Soleil! Also, I love my husband even more, if that's even possible because he pretty much rocked my world beforehand. Maybe that's why the whole sex thing is driving ~~both of~~ us me crazy!
Four and half hours of consecutive sleep feels like 10 hours of premotherhood sleep.
Having the baby cry for a little bit will not kill them, especially if they are full, changed and should be content. This is especially true if you are finishing up on something or doing something that makes you happy. A happy momma equals a happy baby. I'm glad I figured this out at the beginning.
My world is forever changed and will never be the same. I will figure out a new routine eventually. Things are slightly chaotic now, but I can deal with it and know that eventually it will get better.

Updates

2011-06-09T20:20:00.000-05:00

I made this entry at work the night before I went into labor. Looks like my praying and wanting her to come that night worked. I thought I finished the entry, but apparently I never posted it. Craziness.
Yeah, so I'm not keeping up with this blog like I need to. Any followers, still left? I can't believe that May is closer to the end than the beginning. Time is flying by. I don't even have a kid yet! I'm sure it'll be even harder then. Of course, I won't be working for FOUR glorious months! Aaron keeps saying, "You do know that you have to go back, right?" Yeah, yeah, husband, I know.

So, news that has happened over the last month that you may or may not know:

The baby was measuring small, so I had to have an ultrasound. Turns out she's bigger than my doctor thought. Looks like she'll be closer to 7-7.5 pounds. Ouch. I guess I really am all baby.
I have one more work day left and I'm home free and don't have to work anymore. Woot! Yes, I've managed to make it this far working. I'm very grateful for that. I welcome her to come tonight, so I don't have to work tomorrow.
Speaking of that, two weeks ago my doctor told me that I could go at anytime. As if you wanted to know about my private parts, I am 100% effaced, 1 cm dilated, and the child is at 0 station or engaged to come down. Yeah, I've been 100% effaced for almost two weeks. It's craziness. Apparently, this child is stubborn. I'm hoping this means that my labor will proceed quickly, since I don't have to wait to dilate and efface. My doctor said at the very least I should be a few days before my due date, which is 8 days from today.
I'm still planning on going naturally. I've been reading a childbirth book, which I'm almost finished with and I feel pretty prepared.
False labor sucks. Yeah, I had false labor for 4.5 hours last Monday night. I only slept for two hours. My back hurt so bad and the pressure in my pelvis was insane. I didn't even realize that my stomach was getting tight for the longest time.
I have tried everything to get this child to come. I've walked, did squats, tried jogging, sat on my yoga ball, did pelvic tilts, soaked in a warm tub, and had lots of sex. Yes, you wanted to know that too.
Tonight is the full moon. My fingers are crossed that there is some truth to the old wives tale.
My mother-in-law came into town for my family shower. She brought the curtain that she made and the baby bedding. She did a phenomenal job. Seriously, it looks better than the $250 bumper on Etsy. I told her she should open her own Etsy shop.
The nursery is coming along. We still don't have it finished, but honestly, I'm not too worried about it, since she won't be sleeping in there for months anyways. It is going to look so good though. Pictures will follow when it's complete!
I felt great until the last few weeks. Now, I'm tired and ready. I'm going to miss being pregnant though. I really have been lucky.
We seem to be pretty prepared. I have an extra pair of scrub pants and pads at work in case my water breaks. Our bags (including snacks, water, reading material, camera, ipod player, ipod, baby bag, clothes, towels, toiletries that can be tossed after our stay, hard candy for labor, etc.) are officially packed and sitting at the foot of our bed. The pack and play is up. The swing and bouncy seat our up. The bassinet is beside our bed and ready. There are wipes and diapers in the bonus room, our room , and the nursery. All clothes 3 months and under are washed and put away. I still have tons of clothes to wash from all the showers that are larger sizes. The car seat is in Aaron's truck. The house is fairly clean, but I'll be doing more if I don't have this child by Thursday. Oh the funniest thing probably is the fact that on my side of the bed there is plastic covering the mattress and I'm sleeping on an extra really thick comforter, just in case my water breaks. We did this all in about 4 or 5 days when my doctor told us that she could come any day now.
We had three baby showers. I still have one more to go. It's my work one. They are hoping that I make it, but chances are, I won't be there.
I have eaten more junk than I care to admit too. Oh, chicago dogs, why do I love you so. I'm very lucky that I've only gained 26 pounds. I've eaten 26 pounds of Reese's. I'm sure and drank gallons of Dr. Pepper.
I really want to see Bridesmaids.

Hello, world...

2011-06-09T20:13:00.000-05:00

Sorry for the hiatus, this lovely little lady joined our world on May 18 at 6:04 p.m. She weighed in at 7 pounds and 6 ounces and was 21 inches long. Our world is forever changed and we're completely smitten with her.

She and I both had a rough time with her coming into the world, but we're both doing splendidly now. Still trying to figure out a routine. Man, it's hard! I can't get anything done, but I vow to try to at least blog once a week, but hopefully more. The little firecracker likes to be held constantly. That's a problem. She also thinks that night time is from 3:00 a.m.-10:30 a.m. (with feedings in between). Yeah, I'm a little sleep deprived. I wouldn't change it for the world though.

My mother-in-law and father-in-law left this morning, so finally, after three weeks, we are on our own. As much as my mother-in-law helped me out, I'm glad it's just the three of us. It's the only way we can get a routine down, I think. I'll keep you posted on our journey. Hopefully, sooner rather than later.

April Smiles

2011-05-17T18:43:00.000-05:00

Was it me or did April really fly by? April is always busy for us. We have birthdays galore and Easter, of course, but this year, we had even more things on our calendar due our soon to be here baby girl. It was filled to the brim with love, laughter, and smiles. Here's hoping May is just as great, but how could it not be with a baby on the horizon.

. not one, not two, but three baby showers..yes, we are very blessed .

. my birthday and lovely birthday dinner out with Mr. O .

. I finally got the sushi that I had been craving (nothing raw, folks!) .
. celebrating my sister who turned the big 30 .
. watching the nephews hunt for easter eggs. Can't wait to have a little girl who can participate .
. my brother and Aaron (the biggest kids of them all) trying to find the perfect spot to hide the prize egg .
. visiting with the mother-in-law .
. my mother-in-law giving us the wonderful gift of our baby bedding and curtains, which she made and did a fabulous job .
. so many wonderful baby shower gifts .
. chicken marsala .
. dinners with both my family and Aaron's family .
. dinner and ice cream with B and D .
. seeing my brother so excited for his band to play a show, which I unfortunately missed .
. homemade pimento cheese (fo' reals) .
. 3D ultrasounds .
. a baby that's healthy and growing, even though I measure 2-3 weeks smaller than I'm supposed to .
. a nephew turning another year older .
. seeing friends that I haven't seen in a while .
. Phil on Modern Family .
. laughing about horrible mexican food...no hot plates there .
. Adele's new cd .
. chicago dogs...I know, I shouldn't love a hot dog so much .
. lunches that turn into mini baby showers .
. strangers coming to my rescue when my car broke down .
. not getting hit when my car broke down in the middle of an intersection at night .
. turning 33 and the baby turning 33 weeks in the same week .
. childbirth class, which we actually liked and seemed to be really helpful .
. getting a free (practically brand new) ipod player from a coworker .
. flea market purchases and date days with Mr. O .

Nola Gray

2011-04-14T12:04:00.000-05:00

This beautiful little lady will join our world in 6 weeks or less. Can you say excited and terrified?!

Anthro, you had me at hello

2011-04-14T12:02:00.000-05:00

Anthropologie..be still my heart.

First baby shower

2011-04-14T11:53:00.000-05:00

Here are some pictures from my first shower, which I already said was amazing. Feast your eyes on the amazingness!

The lovely Owl centerpiece

The food table

More food

The cupcakes in my two favorite flavors

The setup

My beautiful hosts and a very pregnant me

Chevonne, Jules (who is pregnant too!) and me

Me and my sis

The gorgeous Ordonez ladies

B & ME

Mom and Tiff

The crowd

More guests

Gifts

The jellybean fairy!

and more gifts

and even more gifts (I spared you all from all the gift opening pics :) )

A nightmare of sorts

2011-04-14T11:32:00.000-05:00

Picture this, you're driving home and suddenly the brake light, car doors/trunk light, and battery light begin to flash, so you proceed to call your husband and say, "Please stay by your phone. My car is not acting right." You discuss the possibility that it's your alternator again.

You hang up the phone and continue to drive, only to have all the lights on your dashboard dim and your radio go out several times. You think, "I just need to get a little further," instead of pulling over at two well-lit gas stations.

You come up to a major intersection, Myatt Drive and Old Hickory Blvd to be exact. You think, if only I can get to the other side of the road where there is an emergency lane or to the shady gas station that is up on the right. You decide to go for it, even though the car is starting to act like it doesn't have much power left. Your car rolls forward and dies in the middle of the intersection, blocking a lane of traffic. You have no power, so no lights, it is 10:45 and cars are still abundant on this stretch of the road.

Great little story, right? Yeah, that happened to me coming home from work on Wednesday night. Thankfully, three guys stopped and helped tow my car to a the shady gas station up on the right. Had they not stopped, I have no idea what I would have done. I mean, I went into panic mode for about one minute before I told myself to pull it together.

I was debating, "Do I get out and stand on the side of the road at night?" or "Do I sit like a target for all these cars to hit me in the dark?" Great options, don't you think?

One of the guys that stopped, the one that towed my car with his truck, had worked a 13 hour day, was already late getting home, and his wife was mad at him. He said that he passed me, but immediately turned around because he couldn't leave me sitting there. He just happened to be a mechanic. Now that is God having a hand in your situation. He told the other two guys that it was okay for them to leave and he waited with me for the 20 mins or so it took for Aaron to get there. I had no cash or anything to give him, so I just thanked him one hundred times. I really hope that he, as well as the other two, but especially him, get some good karma back for helping me out.

By the way, I've only broken down twice in my Accord, which has been an amazing car, and both times it was my alternator. The first time I broke down was on the interstate in the left lane during rush hour. Seriously, can I get a break and have my car die in less dangerous spot, if it ever happens again! I live for excitement and I'm all for adventure, but both times, have been a little too much for little ol' me to take.

Showers of baby love

2011-04-04T00:31:00.000-05:00

I had my first baby shower today. It was perfect. Perfect decor, food, and company. Nola racked up tons of bath supplies, outfits, bibs, books, baby wipes, blankets, etc. This little girl is already loved and she isn't even here yet.

I'll post more about it when I get the pictures from Esther. Yes, Ms. Eddy that is a hint to send them my way. Oh and a huge shout out to Esther and Bridget for being the best hostesses a girl could ask for.

One down, and three more to go. The next one is next weekend. I'm hoping it will be just as great as the shower today. It'll be hard to top though! Thanks again, ladies!

Happy March Things

2011-04-04T00:24:00.000-05:00

March seemed to come and go quickly, but not without leaving a lot of happiness and smiles.

. my sister finding out she's having a girl too .

. finding and ordering the perfect fabric for the crib bumper and curtains .

. having a mother-in-law that can make said bumper and curtains .

. encores & more consignment sales .

. Starbuck's breakfast sandwiches and lattes (whoops!) .

. extra money on my checks from all my extra hours .

. good reports from my doctor .

. seeing my nephew baptised .

. hanging out with Aaron's family .

. shopping with my mom .

. lazy afternoons and nights and filled with tv, movies and milkshakes .

. Dunkin' Donuts glazed donuts .

. Purity lowfat chocolate milk .

. the first day of childbirth class going well .

. lunch with Esther and Misty .

. finding out I got the 10a-10p shift .

. good times with Aaron's cousin Lanie who was in town from FL .

. having Hayden call me for homework advice because he didn't trust my sister's answers .

. spring cleaning and having a spotless house (for a week) .

. the arrival of Nola's bed .

. dolls named Coco .

. grocery shopping with Mr. O .

. coffee and hanging at J.J.'s Market .

. finding paper lanterns at Hobby Lobby .

. $8 sandals at Kohl's .

. getting compliments many days on my outfits...that's huge for a pregnant girl! .

. Nurse Jackie marathons .

. actually reading again ...for fun .

. having a husband who will clean up face makeup that I managed to drop and splatter over the entire bathroom as I sat in our bedroom and cried over ruining my outfit, the rug, and the fact it was a brand new bottle of makeup. Oh being pregnant is fun .

. finding the perfect replacement rug at Target .

Exceptional taste

2011-04-01T20:47:00.000-05:00

Apparently, I have it. I can pretty much guarantee if I pick up a purse at Marshall's or T.J. Maxx it will be one that is $100+. Now, don't get me wrong, I love a good deal and get lucky at that one too. Did I ever mention my $5 Tory Burch cashmere sweater? Yeah, that will never happen again.

More often than not though, I gravitate towards the expensive things. I wish I didn't. Case in point, the dress below. I saw a picture of it, and clicked on the link, and low and behold, $600. Sigh. I'll have to try to find a Target or thrift store knock off, especially with little Nola coming along. You know this little girl will always look better than me. I'll have to sacrifice, so she'll be perfect. Hmm, maybe Mr. O should sacrifice instead.

Speaking of fashion, I want you all to look and be fabulous in new Spring clothes. There are some good things out right now! I, unfortunately, won't be buying any. I'll miss the second best season of the year to dress in. Don't worry, pending Mr. O's sacrifice, I'll make up for it and look fierce in the fall!

Where were you?

2011-03-25T23:04:00.001-05:00

I can not believe that I have not posted in almost a month. Where have I been, you ask? Well, I've been picking up extra shifts, we had an out of town house guest, and doing a little spring cleaning. Time got away from me. I've also been scrambling to find baby things and making lists of all the things I have to do in the next 9 WEEKS. Yes, we only have nine weeks (hopefully!) until we hold little Nola in our arms.

So, here's an update on what's been going on.

I've reentered the tired stage of pregnancy. It's not quite as bad as in the first trimester, but let's just say I've been partaking in some napping lately. In fact, I did today. I slept more than I was actually awake during the daytime hours. I think I'm getting sick though. Sigh. I'm hoping it's just my allergies in overdrive.
I'm still reading the same three books. I haven't been as dedicated to reading the last two weeks.
We've gone out and have eaten out a lot in the last few weeks. Good food, but bad for our baby funds.
Misc things: Aaron's cousin, Lanie, was in town for a visit. It was nice to see her. I went to an awesome consignment sale with my mom (more on that later and posts of all the clothes I bought). Yes, I know I should stop buying clothing, but it's so dang hard when you see something cute. When Hayden lived with us, he had entirely too many clothes, many with tags still on them. I know I need to reign it in. What can I say, if I can't buy for myself, then I have to buy for the child. Speaking of the child, I now, officially look pregnant (maybe a picture soon). It's about time! Every single time I tell someone how far along I am, they can't believe it. I'm very grateful that I feel great and that I haven't gained a lot of weight, just 18 pounds so far. My doctor says that I'm doing beautifully and she can't ask me to do any better. Word. That's what I'm talking about. I'm beginning to hate when people ask if I plan on having an epidural. When I say no, they are full of opinions and comments, like "Good luck with that" or "Don't be hard on yourself when you have to get it." Well, I think that's crap. I know, what I'm capable of. I know, if I need it, I'll take it, but it's the furthest from my mind now. I used to be scared to death of the thought of childbirth, but now, I'm eerily calm. It doesn't scare me in the least bit. All you mothers that have birthed your babies, please keep your comments to yourself. I know, it's going to hurt. I know, it'll be the worst pain that I'll ever probably experience (hopefully, anyways), but I know it'll be beyond worth it and I know I am capable of absolutely anything for one day out of 364. It's mind over matter, baby. I think people underestimate what their bodies can do. Now, I'm going to be so disappointed if I have to have c-section. I actually look forward to the pain and the passage into motherhood. It's about dang time, I joined that exclusive club. I'll keep the mental scars close to my heart afterwards.
Oh my goodness, I discovered the deliciousness of glazed donuts from Dunkin' Donuts. Krispy Kreme, who? I usually don't think donuts are worth the amount of fat that they contain, but I could eat a dozen of these, fo' reals. One thing is for sure, this baby likes some junky food. We'll have to fix that when she arrives.
We've made a little progress in the nursery. Our baby bed should arrive next week. I ended up going with a black Jenny Lind style bed, instead of us painting it. We are painting (Valspar's Bumblebee) the rocker we bought off of Craigslist. We found the Russian doll fabric. Woot! So, my mother-in- law will recreate the bumper for me. I found some beautiful fabric for the other side of the bumper too. Also, my mother-in-law started making my curtains with fabric that she found that I loved when I saw it in person. I think it will all blend nicely together. I'm thinking of trying the ottoman, but I may have to return it, if it's just too much with everything else. I'm now on the hunt for a chevron and yellow rug, since I didn't go on that pattern on the curtains.

* Bumper fabric and design *

* Curtain fabric. Sorry, I don't have a better picture of it.

* Flip side of the bumper fabric. I am in love with this fabric!

Things I'm excited about in the near future:

childbirth class and a tour of the labor and delivery floor tomorrow
my first baby shower next weekend
the flea market this weekend
completing projects for the nursery
hanging out with Mr. O for an all day marathon of Nurse Jackie on Sunday and possibly dinner with B & D.
warm weather and bringing out my flats
my second and third showers, which are in April
my birthday! Sushi, anyone? Yes, the cooked ones, of course.
the Easter egg hunt that my mom always hosts at her house
a benefit concert that my brother's band is playing. They are playing 90's cover songs, since their original material isn't ready yet or not ready for this crowd. One of the covers is Sponge..I swoon. I love them. More details to follow, if anyone is interested in coming. It's a $10 cover charge.
the Adele concert...our first date night out after our little bebe's arrival

For the love of books

2011-03-05T20:17:00.000-06:00

I'm reading, not one, not two, but three books. What can I say, every girl needs a little variety.

* I'm trying to have a natural childbirth. I'm not very far into, but I think it will be really helpful. I'm unsure of how the hospital is going to be, considering they are all about the medicine, but this book makes me realize that I don't believe midwives are for me either, but they are insightful.

* I've had this book for a while and have never read it. I've just read the introduction, but I can tell it's going to be a good read. Michael Pollan did a lot of the narrating in Food, Inc. If you haven't seen that movie, it will change your mind about the way you eat and if it doesn't, something is wrong with you, seriously.

* I used part of my Christmas money to get this book. I saw her interview on Oprah and was intrigued. As someone, who's had eating issues in the past, what she said was very true. So far, it's pretty good, but again, not too far into it either.

Happy heart in February

2011-02-28T17:20:00.000-06:00

How can the month of love not contain happy things? Happy heart things in February:

. eating cheeseburgers, fried pickles, and french fries for Valentine's Day dinner .

. successfully making Beouf Bourginon (it only took 4 hours) .

. taking my sweet nephew to his doctor's appt .

. lunch with my brother, mom, and sister .

. finding and buying the perfect (or almost) perfect ottoman for Nola's room .

. Urban Flats .

. going a month over and not getting a ticket for expired tags on my car .

. finding some deals at The Turnip Truck .

. brunch with two of my shower planners at Margot .

. snuggle time with Mr. O .

. getting my spring clean on..or at least starting it..slowly .

. lunches with multiple friends .

. seeing Gnomeo and Juliet with my niece and sister-in-law .

. Reece's white chocolate peanut butter eggs and Dr. Pepper .

. hearing Nola's heartbeat with my stethoscope at home .

. signing up for early enterance to consignment sale next month for being a first time mom .

. hearing about a friend's engagment and seeing the beautiful ring .

. Samoa Girl Scout cookies .

. a friend (finally) getting to share her joy about being pregnant with the world .

. registering at Babies R Us .

. finding footless white lace leggings for Nola .

. having patients finally start asking if I'm pregnant and people telling me that I finally look pregnant .

. having Aaron talk to Nola only to have her kick like crazy...yep, already a daddy's girl .

. hanging out with B and D multiple times .

. making it through 14 hour work days and still loving my job at the end of the day .

. finding the perfect crib bumper and having my mother-in-law agree to make it .

. Jim from The Office in It's Complicated..so hilarious .
. spring like weather .
. frozen yogurt .
. The Cure .
. still being able to wear cute dresses from my non-pregnant days .
. rain boots for all the rain .
. new delicious recipes that took little effort .

Finally, the perfect one

2011-02-28T12:46:00.000-06:00

Found the perfect crib bumper..finally! Of course, it's only $250 and that's just the bumper. I found the fabric online and my mother-in-law agreed to make it. I'm sure it'll be a lot less than $250. I wish I had learned how to sew, so I could do my own sewing projects. Maybe I'll learn one of these days.

And, I found an ottoman at T.J. Maxx. It was only $80, compared to the one that I wanted that was $175. I'll upload a picture of it later. It's floral pattern, orange, pink, red, and purple. Can you picture it? It's better than you think.

Let's pretend for a moment

2011-02-28T11:07:00.000-06:00

Hypothetically speaking, say there was this nurse who had to turn another nurse in for lack luster care (soiled patients, untreated high blood pressure, no recheck of vitals, fever of 103.7..you get the idea) of their patients. Say the charge nurse went to the boss of the ER and was told, "Sometimes we need to turn a blind eye to certain situations." Say that nurse, whose duties were neglected, also got promoted to a day shift position.

*crickets chirping*

Yeah, I would be speechless too. If I was that nurse, who took up the slack, I would be questioning everything this point. Turning a blind eye to patient care, when patient care is the main goal of your work. Interesting. Lesson to be learned: things are not always as they appear and politics exist no matter where you work.

Yesterday, you are not far enough away

2011-02-16T15:25:00.000-06:00

Work yesterday was stressful, nausea inducing, and exhausting. We were slammed. I worked over until 3:00 a.m. I did not get a lunch break. That's 14 hours. I'm thinking that I'm beginning to understand why people told me to pick up extra shifts while I still could because there would come a point where I wouldn't want to do that anymore. My feet, legs, lower back, and hips hurt so badly when I finally laid down that I couldn't fall asleep right away.

You know, it's a bad day when I come home and shower at 3:00 a.m. because I feel gross and contaminated. I apologized to the baby all the way home. I barely felt her move yesterday, but, of course, I was a little too busy to notice.

Without violating too much patient information, here's what made yesterday the best day ever (in opposite land):

Had a patient fall out of bed while trying to get up. It ended in a very, very bad break of an arm. I'm talking send-a-chill-down-your-back-obviously-jacked-up broken. I almost threw up, not from seeing it (please, I live for that stuff), but from it happening at all. I've only ever had to fill out one incident report. Make this one the second one.
Constant influx of patients with no breaks, although I did eat quickly when I started to feel faint and then felt sick from eating in under 10 minutes.
taking over patients from another nurse to find them soiled, in need of a lot of things, and very, very sick. If I had been the patients' families, I would have raised some hell up in that ER for the care my loved one received. Luckily they were nice and I helped fixed the situation by staying over to ensure that they both got safely, cleanly, and in better physical shape up to their hospital rooms.
turning that nurse into my charge nurse. If something would have had happened when I took them over, it would have been on my head. No way. I was livid, not for everything I had to do, but for the care they had received. It's our job to do better than that. I am still so mad when I think about it. I seriously think it was worthy of getting fired over or at least getting a written note in a file or something.
I was told that I'm not the only one that applied for the 7a-7p job, which means, I'm probably low man on the totem pole again and won't get it. She did tell me that no decision had been made final yet. I wanted to cry. They know how badly I want to it, so maybe it'll happen before I come back from maternity leave.

Things that made yesterday a little better:

My day shift charge nurse, who was also my preceptor, asked me to come over to her for a second yesterday during the chaos. She marched me over to my boss, put her arm around me and proceeded to say, "Do you know how hard this baby girl works? She works her self to death and never complains. I love her for it." Then she kissed me on the head and hugged me. Seriously. That's a pretty good compliment. My face turned five-shades of red. My night-time charge nurse met with my boss this morning and I believe she may have said some nice things about me too. See, they should pick me for the 7a-7p job. They won't be disappointed.
One of my patients told me that I was the best nurse he'd ever had in his whole (27 years) of life. I think he may have been flirting, but I'll take it. I guess I still don't look that pregnant. :)
Two of the most adorable babies flashing huge smiles at me, even after I flu swabbed one of them. How quickly they forget the discomfort.
Working in the fast track area with one of my favorite PAs.
Knowing that I had today off.

Picture it, Sicily 1945

2011-02-16T14:33:00.000-06:00

Any avid Golden Girl fans pick up on that reference? Ah, Golden Girls one of my favorite shows when I was a kid, along with other favorites: Wheat Chex cereal, (kid) coffee, antique shopping and reading in a flannel nightgown in bed at night before I fell asleep. What can I say, I spent a lot of time with my grandmothers...and maybe I was a 50 year old trapped in a 8 year old body.

No, seriously, picture this nursery. It is so beautiful (in my head).

I found the perfect ottoman. I NEED it (said in a eight year old whining way with a stomp at the end).

Yes, that ottoman with this chair, which I don't have to dream about because it's mine.

With this pillow and one of these dolls seated comfortably on said chair.

This bedding, which I don't love, but I'm about to give up on finding what I want because it seems impossible. It's too bad that I don't sew. I may take a look at Etsy though. I really just need a bumper and bed skirt.

This crib

an N like this above the crib

Two of these pics framing the N

On the ceiling, instead of a mobile, something similar to this (the pom poms and paper lanterns) in matching colors of the room.

I really wanted yellow and white chevron curtains, but I'm not having any luck. Those might be something that I get one of my sister-in-laws to make for me because they are awesome like that. I may go with another color, since the crib will hopefully be yellow. We shall see.

Oh yeah, the walls are the color behind the bookcase in this picture.

In about two weeks or so, my mom's boyfriend is coming over, so that he and Aaron can fix, clean up, and move into the house this dresser/changing station we purchased at the flea market last year.

I like a good plan and I think I have one. I must get busy. I only have 98 days left in this pregnancy. It has been a blur.

The day of love

2011-02-14T13:26:00.000-06:00

Forgive the last entry. I had meant to post it this weekend and ended up getting sidetracked and forgetting about it.

Today is love day! I know what people say about it only being a holiday made by greeting card companies. My husband is among those less than thrilled about it. However, I think I've brought him over to my side over the years. After all, this is our 11th Valentine's Day together.

We spent Friday night celebrating with B & D at Burger Up followed by Sweet CeCe's. I mean, nothing says Happy Valentine's Day like burgers, fries, fried pickles and frozen yogurt. It was actually my idea. I love some cheeseburgers and mine was delicious. We have eaten with B & D for Valentine's Day for at least 6 or 7 years out of the 11. I always look forward to it.

This morning, I left out a small little token of my love for Aaron. We agreed not to get each other gifts and to just go to dinner, but I can't give up the opportunity for some small little gift. I bought Mr. O some apple fritters for his breakfast (he loves those), a pack of his favorite chewing gum, a red bull (yuck), a candy bar, and a gift card to Starbuck's. I also left him a note telling him to rush home to me tonight.

Tonight, I'm conquering a master chef's recipe, Miss Julia Child's Boeuf Bourginon. Yeah, I'll be in the kitchen for much of the afternoon/early evening, but it will so be worth it. I'm also making a salad, sauteing some peas, and making mixed berry cobbler with vanilla ice cream. Happy Valentine's Day to us!

So, don't be a dick today. Seriously. Don't moan and groan over what you don't have or what you wished you had or the fact that you may be single. There is love in your life. What's wrong with one day to tell someone that you love them. With as much as we have going on in our lives, we need a day set aside to just appreciate something as simple and as great as love. Who cares if Hallmark is behind it? For the most part, it seems like people are happier on Valentine's Day, so what is wrong with that. I'll take any day where people are in better moods.

Call your mama, hug your spouse, child or dog or treat yourself to something fabulous. For one day, just let there be love. After all, it is all we need. I had to throw something cheesy in.

By the way, I love my husband 365 days a year, not just today. I told him that when I talked to him this morning. I am grateful and love my friends and family ALL 365 days. I am just reminded today how much love is in my life. If you need a Valentine, I'm already yours. Hope you all have a great one!

I couldn't have said it better myself

2011-02-14T13:01:00.000-06:00

Even though, I have no idea what it will be like to be a mother, I completely feel like Elaine, known as MamaQ from Wasabi Mama, took words out of my mouth when she was featured on Rockstar Diaries recently.

Not to say those of you who had no problems conceiving, don't feel the same way, but when you struggle for years to have something that you want to so badly, only to have your body defy you time and time again and to be slapped in the face by a stick you pee on more times than you care to admit, when it finally happens, it is a miracle. It's surreal. You almost don't believe it's true.

When you work in a job where you have to try to put a catheter in a 2 month old and, afterwards, the child is laying on the bed screaming and her mother is too busy texting to pick the child up, so one of us (the nurses) pick her up as we stare at each other in bewilderment with is-this-really-happening looks or when I'm holding your child's hand because you can't stand to see your child in pain, so you excuse yourself while three of us hold your four year-old down and stick needles into her as she yells for her mama and stares into my eyes with tears pouring down her cheeks and I keep holding her hand and reassuring her that it will be over soon and that her mama will be there soon or when you have to IV a 9 month old who has been vomiting and had diarrhea for 5 days and is so dehydrated that no veins are present and multiple sticks ensue and it isn't even the parents that bring him, it's the aunt and the parents ask you how their child could be this dehydrated, it makes you want to scream, "Are you freaking kidding me!?" It makes it hard not to get angry that these women get to be mothers, but you don't. It makes you question what kind of mother you are going to be because, obviously, it must be a really horrible one or it would have happened by now.

I'm sorry, if I've been mushy lately and I really don't want to talk all baby things all the time, but forgive me for the time being because it finally did happen. I am pregnant. I'm still in disbelief six months into this. Sometimes, I'll just stop and look at Aaron and say, "We're having a baby," or "I'm really pregnant." He'll do the same thing to me. It's so mind blowing. Sometimes, I'll glance at the mirror and have a kind of out-of-body experience, like is that really me. Now, that my belly is expanding and there is no denying that some little person is in there.

So, I'll take the vomiting, the screaming, the crying, and all the good things that are sprinkled in between. I'm looking forward to every experience, whether good or bad, of raising this child. I have years of practice with nieces and nephews, my best friend and love of my life by my side, tons of friends and family full of advice to offer me and the power to choose whether or not to take it.

I am ready for this. I have been ready for this for a long time. May 25 could not get here soon enough.

Happy January Things

2011-02-02T11:17:00.000-06:00

Yet another month is approaching it's end. January was yet another happy filled month. Here's the run down of all the warmth it bestowed on my heart. Next up, the month of love!

. my sister getting good news about her pregnancy .
. no cavities at the dentist .
. lunch with Lori (love her!) .
. my own good doctor's appt .
. still wearing my own clothes for the most part. woot! .
. coffee and catching up with Angie .
. finding out that I get a new and much better schedule .
. getting great mother advice from my friend, Christy, and hanging out with her sweet boys .
. Liz Phair .
. having a loving husband that will come and pick me up from work at 1:00 a.m. when it snows .
. having a great boss that was willing to come get me for work in the snow .
. establishing not one, not two, but three baby shower dates (thanks to my wonderful friends and aunt) .
. getting a new-to-us rocking chair from Craigslist .
. celebrating my nephew's, Logan's, 9th birthday .
. dinner and gift exchanging with B & D..finally .
. dr. pepper and reese's peanut butter cups .
. Old Navy clearance deals on baby and maternity clothes .
. establishing our sweet baby's name .
. caring nephews that want baby girl toys around .
. Aaron getting side jobs to ease his mind some about all the chedda babies cost .
. cheeseburgers and fries .
. Sophie's injury to her foot not being as bad as we thought .
. cuddle mornings laying in bed for hours with Mr. O .
. finally taking down all the Christmas decorations .
. free maternity clothes .
. date days spent ordering in and staying in pajamas .

You know you're getting old when...

2011-01-30T23:53:00.000-06:00

You're home from a concert at 11:20, your legs hurt from standing the whole time, your ears are ringing and your stone-cold sober (of course, pregnancy had a lot to do with this one). B and I went and saw Liz Phair, who looks exactly the same as when we were in high school and puts on one good show.

There were several surprising things from the night. One being the number of guys, who were not only there, but who knew more lyrics than I did. It was bizarre. Of course, when a female sings a lot about sex, then I guess I can see the attraction to attend a show. You just don't walk into a predominantly female oriented music show expecting to see guys without girlfriends who drug them there or who aren't there looking to pick up girls. These guys were just mesmerized by Liz, other girls didn't even seem to exist to them. The second surprising thing was how fun people watching is, especially the drunk people, when you haven't had a drop of alcohol. I mean, I don't get falling down drunk when I go out, but a couple of beers and I'm usually feeling pretty good. It was a lot of fun just watching everyone else tonight. People are quite entertaining.

Tomorrow is my first 10a-10p. I'm sure I'll be tired, but I hope I get used to it quickly. You may not hear from me for a the next few days. I work the next three in a row. Let's just say that I'm really looking forward to Thursday.

Oh yeah, we went all the way to Cookeville to look at a chair we saw on Craigslist and we got it! So, I can mark the rocker off my list. Word! It's an Ikea Lilliberg chair. It was my second choice in rocker/gliders. I mean, the exact chair. I had seen it on a blog in a nursery and had liked it. What do you think?

We have THE name

2011-01-28T15:37:00.000-06:00

Well, after much discussion..um, not really, considering that this was Aaron's choice from the beginning..we are 99.9% sure of our little baby girl's name. I was the one that hesitated. I didn't want to make the wrong decision and I like quite a few girl's names, so, of course, the what-if-we-don't-have-another-girl thought went through my head. All those other names would be lost.

We can't wait to introduce you all to:

Nola Gray

As most of you know, Nola, is my first name, as well as, my great-grandmother's name. She was amazing. It was important for me to pass along her name. Aaron has told me since before we were talking about having kids that if we had a baby girl, then we would name her Nola.

Gray is a name I saw somewhere a few years ago. It was a little boy's name, but I have it on both my girl and boy name lists.

If you love it, great! If not, then don't tell us. We don't want to hear it. And, you better believe, if we have another girl, her name will be Sylvie. That, I am also 99.9% sure about.

My boys

2011-01-28T15:25:00.000-06:00

I almost forgot to mention a cute story my mom told me. She watched my two nephews, Hayden, who is 8, and Brice, who is 4, over the weekend. She told me she was busy cooking dinner and the boys were playing in the "play" room, which is filled with toys for when the nephews come over to her house.

Suddenly, she said they both appeared in the kitchen with concerned looks on their faces and they proceeded to tell her how she needed to buy some girl toys for Nay's (my) baby or she wouldn't have anything to play with because there were only boys toys in the play room. She proceeded to tell them that she knew and she had planned on buying some toys for her. Hayden then said, "Well, you better do it now because you don't have a lot of time." With that, the turned around and went back to playing.

I wish I could have been a fly on the wall in that room when they started to have that conversation before they came to tell my mom. My nephews are the most amazing little humans. I'm lucky they are in my life. My heart is filled to the brim with love for them.

Brice, my mom, Logan, and Hayden

(This is from our beach house from last summer's vacation. I need to take some new pics of the boys)

Winter is for hibernation

2011-01-28T15:07:00.000-06:00

I've been hibernating. Mostly, my time has involved reading magazines, watching television, spending hours on the internet and doing the occasional cleaning. It's been so nice. Every time I think of something to blog about it's at an inopportune time, then I forget exactly what I was going to write. My brain doesn't quit multi-task like it did before I was pregnant. Now, it's more like, "What was I thinking about? Hmm, don't know. Moving on." I'm just rollin' with it.

I've spent much of today searching Craigslist, looking at decorating magazines, and watching decorating shows. The nursery and finishing home projects are all I can think about as time is ticking down. Clothing is on the back burner, for obvious reasons now. I usually get stuck in either thinking and obsessing over clothing or the home. Never do I cross them at the same time. Of course, I couldn't afford to do that anyway.

I found a rocker that I think I can make work on Craigslist. Unfortunately, when I called someone was on their way to look at it. Isn't that always how it goes with Craigslist!? I found an Ikea rocker that I had seen and bookmarked on a blog. It's only $75, but as I'm anxiously awaiting their reply, I'm sure it's gone, since it was a few days ago when it was posted. We shall see.

My new schedule starts next week. I'm officially on the two 10a-10p and one 1p-1a. That is so much better than my current schedule. If I haven't talked to you about it, then let me tell you that they were way nicer to me than my other two partners. It's crazy, but I don't have to work any Fridays or Saturdays in February. I was pleasantly surprised. I work the first two Sundays, but I can handle that. I'm actually loving that!

Anyway, must hit the shower. Yes, it's 3:00. Judging is wrong people. Aaron and I have our first daycare appointment tonight at 5:30. It makes me sad thinking about dropping my baby girl off with a stranger, but I know it must be done. This daycare is an in home daycare. It's actually off the street across the street from our house, so we don't have far to go. I am anxiously awaiting it. It would work out so perfectly, if it's clean (you know how I am with clean), nice, and inviting.

Okay, so I poked my head in. Don't stop reading. I'm here. I've got loads of things to write about it. I just need to pull myself out of my cave.

All about myself

2011-01-09T13:24:00.000-06:00

I may have said, "That's what she said," when someone said, "That's the wrong hole," at work. I seriously stood there like, "Did I just say that out loud? No, maybe I didn't." Christy, one of the other nurses, was the only one that heard me. She gave me a high-five. We both laughed. My face turned about five shades of red. I'm not sure some of the peeps at work are ready for all that. How could I not pass up that opportunity though? It was the perfect setup. Sometimes I forget that I'm not at home or with my friends and people that get things like that.
Aaron picked up a side job this weekend, so I'm stuck at home on my weekend off by myself. Granted, I could go out and do something. I think I'm going to do a little antique shopping tomorrow. I have been on the computer all day. I should be taking down our Christmas decorations, but I'm enjoying the light of the Christmas tree for one more day. I think, more importantly, I should go shower.
So, the shift changes at work are happening! I don't know where I'm going to fall because of I'm third in line. It looks like Larry, who works 10a-10p is moving up to 7a-7p, because Betty is retiring. Gaynell, another nurse who worked 10a-10p, got let go, so ideally there would have been two 10a-10p shifts for me and Colby, my 1p-1a partner to take, but, unfortunately, they are rearranging everything. It looks like there will be two 10a-10p, which one is already filled, and a shift that works 10a-10p two days a week and 1p-1a one day week. If Colby doesn't take the 10a-10p, then I think it's mine, but I don't know why he wouldn't take it. I've been praying so hard for this to happen and picturing it so much. I am shocked that everything happened so quickly. It's like my prayers were answered. I'll let you guys know where I fall when it's all said and done. I'm hoping we find out soon. I think they'll have to make the decision before the end of the January work schedule. I hope I get a great shift that eases my mind a little about returning after maternity leave.
Speaking of jobs, the perfect job for me came open. It's a Research RN position that performs tests and collects data on Oncology patients. I would kill for this job. Of course, being pregnant, is not exactly a good time to apply for a job, plus I really do love my job, but this would be normal hours, but that also means 5 days a week, so that's a downfall. I don't think I should apply, but it's like a slap in the face watching it slip through my fingers. It's crazy how I get Career Builder emails for nursing jobs, but I haven't looked at them in months and months and the one time I do at the very top job is this one. I swear, there are very odd things that happen to me.
I'm having lunch with at least three friends this week. That's pretty sweet. I plan on talking to B about lunch this week, so I can finally give her her Christmas gifts. Thanks a lot, West Elm! Also, I'm having lunch at Christy's house, so we can go over some baby things, and then catching coffee or lunch with Angie one day to catch up on life and nursing things. Good times. Should be a really good week. I work Monday and Tuesday and then the weekend. Boo to the weekend part.
I have a couple of showers in the works. Thanks to super awesome friends and my aunt. I'm super excited about that! I need all that I can get. Baby things are expensive! I should have some dates worked out soon.

All things Nola

2011-01-08T15:49:00.000-06:00

I know you are all dying to see what nursery plans I have up my sleeves. Probably not, but you're going to look at it anyway. Also, here is the collection of things that we've accumulated, so far. Looks like little Nola won't be totally unclothed. She'll be a little fashionista and she has no idea yet. I'm trying to find sleepers and onesies that aren't in pink, but it's hard, peeps. Girls can wear other colors. I hardly ever wore pink when I was growing up. You know, this is going to backfire on me and she's only going to love pink. That's okay, I'll love her regardless, of course!

* The bag on the left is the purse that my mom got me for Christmas. She is absolutely right that it can be used as a diaper bag. It has so many pockets and compartments. Plus, I can wear it crossways too. The backpack in the middle is what I bought Aaron for Christmas. It's actually a snowboarder's backpack, which means, it too has lots of pockets and compartments inside. I'm sure this is one that we'll take to the daycare because he'll be picking her up. The one on the right is the bag I bought months ago before I even found out I was pregnant because I thought it would make a perfect diaper bag. It has tons of pockets and compartments too. The funny thing is that both the bag my mom bought and the bag I bought are Franco Sarto bags. If you like pockets and compartments, get one of these purses. They will not disappoint.

*Most of these are bigger clothes, passed down from Miss Ava. I absolutely love the fifth piece, which is a dress I picked up at Old Navy like two or three years ago. It just so happens to be a 0-3 months, is red, white and blue, has matching bloomers and will make the perfect July 4th outfit. That is, if we do anything on July 4th and I don't have to work. Nola will be rocking it in the summer, regardless.

* Aaron and I picked up this little suit the other night at Old Navy. She now has this and a winter coat for next winter. Thanks Old Navy for clearancing winter items so quickly!

* Odds and ends. Most of these I have picked up over the last few years when I have seen them on clearance. Some are more hand-me-downs from Ava.

* Books, books and more books. The books on the right were a childhood set that my brother, sister and I grew up with. I was so happy to get them back. My sister had them and did not take care of them. They were in my mom's garage and were filthy! I did my best to clean them up.

* The gift from Aaron's aunt and uncle. I love this book!

So, I'm planning another collage in the baby's nursery. This one will go over the baby bed. It will feature some artwork that I've picked up, family pictures in bright and different sized frames, colorful cloth pieces in sewing rings (I have no idea what they are called!), and a picture in the center that is tall and vertical with hand painted stenciled letters that read: "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." One of the best quotes from Dr. Seuss' book Oh, The Places You Will Go. I have to make this one, unless someone wants to make it for me. :) There will also be a letter N somewhere. It's going to be perfect. Then, I'll quite collaging everything.

* Two picture frames that will go into the collage.

* Artwork that I've bought from The Black Apple on Etsy that will be framed and added to the collage. I love her art! I've had that top picture for a year or two. It's called Sylvie. Sylvie is in the running for our middle name. I've been in love with that name forever and if we weren't calling the baby Nola, we would be calling her Sylvie. The picture on the bottom left says, "There's more to life than books, you know but not much more." The little girl is sitting on a stack books. The last picture doesn't need explaining. I mean, who wouldn't want to take a midnight ride on winged-feathered friend to deliver a love note.

*The fabric in the sewing ring thingys. I'll use various sizes. I find it funny that this room as a letter N and also has a painted Jenny Lind crib, which is what I want to do. I even like the idea of yellow, if I don't go with red.

Now, I'm going to start looking around and picking up things here and there. I can't wait to pick up some headbands with flowers, little hats and other cutesy Etsy items. I'll have to do this slowly, since Aaron will slap the checkbook shut on me. Of course, when he saw the little bear suit at Old Navy, he said, "That's really cute. Let's get it." He's coming over to my side thanks to this little baby girl!

I also have been getting some ideas from blogs, including great places to purchase baby items. Here are some that I'm loving right now.

Under the Sycamore. I love this blog. If you don't follow it, you should. Ashley Ann is super creative, has a house I would die for, and has four kids, including a baby girl that gives me baby styling ideas. She is also an amazing photographer.

The Miller Family. I have very similiar decorating, musical, and fashion tastes as Sharstin. She also dresses her children exactly like I picture how my . She throws some hell-ah good kid's parties too. She also just had a baby girl, Nora!

Bleubird Vintage. It seems like everyone and their mother follow this blog, so you may already. I don't think a family can get more beautiful than this one. I love their quirky style, plus Miss James has excellent tastes. I've been turned on to many a sites from this blog. She looked fantastic while pregnant too. So, I got some good maternity ideas. She also had a baby girl, Gemma (I adore this name too!), recently. Looks like baby girls are taking over the world!

Sometimes Sweet. Danielle is an inspiration to stay fit while pregnant. She just recently had a baby boy. I like her style a lot too. In fact, I think I started following it more as a fashion blog. She also showcased some great maternity style too. It's nice to follow first time parents as they are trying to figure it all out too. Plus, she does Tattoo Tuesdays, which as turned me on to other great blogs and some great tattoo ideas, not that I would ever copy someone's tattoos.

The Rockstar Diaries. I started following this blog long before Naomi announced she was pregnant. Her style is perfection. What can I say, I'm drawn to vintage things and styles. She is also quite gorgeous. I may have a slight girl crush on her. They also had the cutest prenancy announcement ever!

Young House Love. This one is all about design. They have renovated, not one, but are working on their second home. They also are young parents and have had excellent tips and posts about things, like cloth diapers, which I think I'm going to use. They inspire me to get to work on my own house!

Goals for 2011

2011-01-06T11:59:00.000-06:00

I can't believe that it's already that time again. Did the past year go quickly for anyone else? Geez. I haven't thought long and hard about these. They are just things that I know I need to make happen or things that I know I need to work on. I think I did an okay job with last year's list, but I'm hoping to do better this year. How can I not? It's 2011! When are we going to be flying around in cars, wasn't that soon?

Goal #1: Exercise at least two times a week. I'm starting out small because three just seems like too much of a commitment, especially with the job I have. This also includes getting back into shape after the baby and as quickly as I can too. My mom said within three months she was back in her normal clothes after she had me and I say that is a good goal to have too. Maybe I'll do a 5k too. I really, really want to do one. I realize I can't really exercise during the 6 weeks after the baby, so this excludes that time, but I'll make up for it afterwards!

Goal #2: Read at least 12 books this year. I think I can do this one. It's just one book a month. That is very doable. I'm already about half way through the Baby Bargains book I got.

Goal #3: Work on punctuality. You know that Aaron and I have an extreme problem with this, more so him than me. I mean, 10 minutes is a whole lot better than 20-30 that he usually makes us. Actually, they both are a problem. With a baby looming the future, I am terrified that we are going to be hours late now. Aaron agrees that this must be worked on. I went to the dentist and meet a friend for lunch on Monday and I was early to both, but don't ask about my doctor's appointment because I may have been 14 mins late. Whoops! You win some and you lose some. By the end of this year, I will be better at this.

Goal #4: Have regular date nights. My marriage is too important to me to just be consumed with all things baby. We will still have date nights because I love them and that's part of why Aaron and I still feel kind of like newlyweds. It keeps things fresh and exciting. I love one on one time with him. We each deserve each other's undivided attention on a regular basis. Every couple needs that. Now, if I could just get his iPhone out of his hands. :)

Goal #5: Keep up with blogging or writing. I'm keeping this one on the list. I like keeping up the blog and want to include a baby book/journal too. I think it's important for a child to know when they had milestones. I know, when they have kids they may want to know when they accomplished things to compare with their own kids. As for instance, I was 6 pounds 1 ounce. Please baby Nola follow suit!

Goal #6: Take a vacation more than once. I'm keeping this one on the list too. We're already planning to head down to see Aaron's parents while I'm on maternity leave and with me being on maternity leave for the whole summer, I think two trips are definitely doable, even with a newborn in tow.

Goal #7: Be the best parent I can be and to accept when things don't go perfectly. The lack of sleep in my future scares the bejeezeus out of me. Seriously. I love sleep and I get so darn cranky, if I don't get enough. I will not let this keep me from doing my best at the whole parenting thing. I realize things aren't always going to go as planned and, as I planner, I'm going to work on just letting it go as long as no one's in harm's way and the baby's happy, who cares if the plan doesn't work out. I'm sure this one will be hard for me at first.

Goal #8: Freeze at least 10 meals before the baby arrives. That's right, momma O and daddy O have got to eat. I know, I'm not going to feel like cooking, so my goal is to freeze several meals for us. Maybe even lunch size portions for myself, so I eat with ease while I'm taking care of the baby.

Goal #9: Finish all the unfinished projects in the house and start on the new ones (the nursery, new carpet, fence and kitchen remodel). Things have gone too far for too long on some things. I somehow need to convince Aaron that he needs to work on his procrastination this year. That would help me out with this one!

Goal #10: Live more in the moment. Yes, this one will be hard too, but I know, I'm constantly thinking about the future and plans and what's going to happen. I'm so worried about going to work after the baby is born. That won't be until like September! See, I have a problem. New things have opened up at work. Everyone please keep your fingers crossed that I get the time slot I need for me, Aaron, and the baby. Now, back to in the moment, (do you see what happened there?) with the baby, I plan on trying to just be with the baby and not have my mind wondering. It'll be easier, since I won't be working at that time. I think we're all too busy thinking and worrying and we let things pass us by. This year, I plan on letting very little slip away from me.

Goal #11: Work on the outside of our house. I know, I'll be huge in the Spring, but we really neglected out plants and the outside of our house last year. We need a little curb appeal in our lives. I plan on getting my pregnant self out there with Mr. O to plant and get things done. We bought new paint for our shutters and still haven't done it, which technically falls under goal #9. Maybe we can get that done too.

Looks like more than last year, but I can handle it! If I think of anything else, I'll too the list, but I think this will keep me quite busy.

Labor Playlist

2011-01-03T18:47:00.000-06:00

I started making my labor playlist. Here's the songs that I've found so far. I still want to add something by Ray LaMontagne, Mumford & Sons, and The Weepies. I have plenty of time to change my mind on songs too. What do you think?

http://www.mixpod.com/playlist/74425969

The Soko song is totally mine and Aaron's song. I love it! So is the Meiko one for that matter!

Happy things, the December version

2011-01-02T14:44:00.001-06:00

When is December not filled with happy things? After all, it is the most wonderful time of the year! Here's all the smile inducing things that December held for me.

. finding out we're having a baby girl .

. having all the nieces and nephews love their Christmas gifts .

. Christmas Eve with my one true love .

. watching White Christmas .

. having a white Christmas .

. getting more gifts than anyone could ever ask for .

. Baby O receiving her first gift, a bottle and some baby powder from my mom .

. Christmas shopping with my mom .

. giving to those in need .

. rocking a puzzle working competition for a prize Mr. O really wanted .

. getting Mr. O the Xbox .

. Fundue with B & D .

. having a great evening with Aaron's family .

. getting teased at work for not looking pregnant .

. having coworkers that are just as excited as I am that I'm expecting .

. reading by light of the Christmas tree .

. celebrating our 10 year dating anniversary (Yes, we've been together a decade!) .

. lunch with Esther .

. listening to none stop Christmas music .

. sleepover visits with my beautiful sister-in-law and niece .

. snow dates out with the husband when the roads are empty .

. your mom just said, "balls." .

. feeling little Nola move .

. making it safely home from work on snow covered roads .

. the return of my energy .

. playing zombie games on Playstation 3 only to have them attack me and me cover my head and just run in circles. Aaron thought it was ridiculous. Video games are stressful .

. making it to midnight on New Year's Eve, so that I could wish everyone happy new year before making a mad dash for the bathroom. Good times .

. Scrabble games with Mr. O .

. whole grain blueberry muffins .

. scrumptious apple pie that I made from scratch .

I'm sure there was more, but that's all that I can think of. It was an amazing month!

2010 goals revisited

2011-01-02T14:10:00.001-06:00

Goal #1: Run at least one 5K with my husband. I almost completely failed this one, but I did start running. I actually was running/jogging better than I ever have. By the end, I could almost run the entire two mile loop in my neighborhood without having to stop for a minute and walk. My neighborhood has major hills, so I was very proud of that. I quit running in July because of the heat. The last time I went was at 7:30pm and I came home absolutely drenched in sweat and feeling as if I was going to throw up or pass out. I decided to wait until it started cooling down some and low and behold, I got pregnant in September. My doctor did say it was fine if I was jogging before I could do it now. Over the last month or two, I've finally gotten my energy back. I know, I've got to start doing something soon. More on that goal, later.

Goal #2: Read at least 25 books this year. Failed. I think I read 5 or 6 books. How sad is that? I seriously, have a hard time reading after nursing school. Thanks a lot for that, TSU! I'm going to lower this goal a bit for the new year.

Goal #3: Be a more healthy me. Check! This one came easily. I gave up sodas for a long time. I just recently started drinking them again. I didn't have my first one for around 6 months. That's pretty good. We eat tons of organic things now. In fact, with the switches I made last January, I lost 5 pounds, like instantly. That was craziness. I feel really good too.

Goal #4: Expand our recycling. Yep, check! We did it. We've now have been recycling everything for most of 2010. It's easy. In fact, we just recently cancelled our trash pickup because they were only having to get it once a month because our trash can was never full. You know, you're making a difference when you see how much of what use can be recycled. Everyone should have this goal. It would have such a huge impact on the world.

Goal #5: Keep up with blogging or writing. I definitely did this, even though some months were less than other months, especially when I was exhausted at the beginning of the pregnancy.

Goal #6: Take a vacation more than once. Word! We did it. We went to Gatlinburg with B & D over Halloween weekend and spent five days in Tybee Island, GA with my family. They both were fantastic trips!

Goal #7: See my family more. Yep, we did see them more. Of course, over the holiday time we didn't see them as much, but everyone was so busy. Throughout the year, we saw them plenty.

Goal #8: To not be so hard on myself. I'd like to pat myself on the back for this one. Just about every time that the negative voice would creep into my head, I'd say, "Shut up!" I'd also throw in a few expletives, but I'll spare y'all from that.

Goal #9: To give more to others. I wasn't too sure how to accomplish this one. I mean, I think I give to others, especially with my job. I'll have to come up with a clear cut plan to really feel like I've accomplished this one.

It's a new day, it's a new dawn

2011-01-02T13:36:00.000-06:00

It's amazing how good you feel after you've been sick. I don't feel 100%, but compared to yesterday or Friday night, I could run marathons today.

I'm pretty sure that I let you guys all know that we are having a baby GIRL. Super excited because girls are definitely fun to shop for. After my doctor's appointment on Thursday, I went shopping to use my Christmas money and Target gift cards. I came home with a bunch of loot! I do not have any Christmas money or gift cards left, besides the movie gift card.

Baby Nola Loot

I know, I'll get tons of clothes probably, so that's why I stuck to 6 month and older clothes. That hippo would be the baby's first Christmas gift for next year. See, I'm on top of things. You parents should all go to Target, not only are half their toys on clearance, but so are all their baby clothes/toddler clothes. The only thing I got as far as clothes though, was the pink striped shirt with the grey leggings. Why does everything in the Target baby section have to be pink for little girls!? Seriously. Thank you, Old Navy for believing that little girls can wear other colors.

Baby Momma Loot

Some of this is maternity and some of this is just regular clothes, but up a size. Old Navy had almost all of their maternity clothes on sale. I got the white shirt above for $16, instead of $30, and that purple dress for $12. I figured, come summer, I can fit into it and it'll be nice and cool.

I also got a white BeBand, so that I can still wear my jeans a little longer and some more Hanes cotton underwear. Aaron says it's like being married to 10 year old. My purchases would also include two bras, but sadly, I did not try them on in the store and they were both too small. I am terrified of what my boobs will become after this. I'm already in a D people. Seriously. I'm thinking, based on the sizes I selected, that I must be a 36D, since the 34D and 36C are too small *hangs head in shame*.

I think I'm all set as far as clothes for a while. Granted, I got all plain things, but I can wear some of my regular clothes for awhile, so they can spice it up.

Welcome, 2011!

2011-01-01T19:24:00.001-06:00

Well, I spent my New Year's Eve with a stomach bug. It was not fun. I at least made it to midnight before the worst of it kicked in. I had to call into work today, which I hated, but I was miserable and had a fever. I finally got out of bed around 3:30 and showered. Right now, Mr. O has headed out to pick me up some soup. Love him.

Now it was a crappy New Year's Eve, but all I kept thinking was at least I know the new year will be better than this. See, always positive. I hope you all had a wonderful evening and rang in the new year with the ones you love. 2011 will be the best year yet, I just know it.

I wish you all a new year gleaming with laughter and glistening with adventure. I know, Mr. O and I will have a year filled with both.

Goodbye 2010

2011-01-01T19:17:00.000-06:00

Dear 2010,

You were pretty spectacular to me. I can hardly remember a bad thing occurring at all. You brought to me a job that I love at a time that I really needed it, a continued, if not stronger, love with my husband, an amazing trip to the beach with my family, and the baby girl that I've been dreaming about for so long.

I don't know how 2011 will top you, but I'm positive it will try. Thanks for the love, the laughter, and happiness. You completely rocked my world.

Renee

Best line ever

2010-12-27T12:54:00.000-06:00

Yesterday, at my brother's house, we celebrated by having brunch. My mom was talking about the sausage balls. Aaron said, "Your mom just said, "Balls." All of the siblings and spouses died out laughing. Most of us we're sitting at the dining room table together with no kids. I said, "I do believe that this is the kid's table." Leave it to my husband to put a smile on our faces and to make us laugh.

How could I forget?

2010-12-27T12:44:00.000-06:00

I forgot to mention one of my best gifts, a ticket from B to the Liz Phair concert on January 30th at Mercy Lounge. Word! I also got some owl decals, which I'm not sure if I'm going to use in the nursery or take back, and a Target gift card. Make that two Target gift cards, after the celebration with my family yesterday.

I was going to venture out and use the gift cards today, but I decided, due to the fact that I work the next two days and I'm already going out on Thursday, I'll wait until Thursday to use them. I've already decided that, since I'll know the baby's sex on Thursday, I'd pick something up for him/her while I'm Target. See, this works out much better.

So, today, I'm lounging in my pjs, picking up the house, and putting our Christmas gifts in their new homes. I'm still snotty, but I feel better than yesterday. After my brother's house, I came home and fell asleep around 5:30 and slept until 8:30. I must kick this illness before New Year's Eve or I probably won't make it until midnight. That would be a tragedy.

More later on the gifts I got from my Mom with pictures to boot!

Words for the New Year

2010-12-26T22:58:00.000-06:00

(Image from Everything Fabulous)

For the record

2010-12-25T23:36:00.000-06:00

I can now feel the baby move! (B, hope you didn't just throw up in your mouth a little) It started last Tuesday. Although, I did think I felt it around 15 weeks, but not again, so I was a tad bit worried. Well, let me just say I usually don't start to feel it until around 9:00pm. This baby totally has night and day confused. That's going to be loads of fun when he/she is here. I've been feeling it pretty much every day since. Sometimes a lot and sometimes just a few times. Pretty much exclusively late at night, except for last night around 7:30 when Aaron and I were watching White Christmas during one of the musical numbers. Apparently, the child likes some music.
Speaking of music, Aaron bought me a Squeezebox for Christmas. For those of you that don't know what a Squeezebox is, it's like a radio that plays different Internet and social network music. Like, I can play the music on Facebook or on Pandora (Pandora being why I wanted it). Ever since I experienced it at B and D's house, I have wanted one.
I'm totally getting sick. Ugh. I was just bragging last Wednesday night at work that I haven't been sick, since November of last year. Well, flash forward to my drive home that night and suddenly my throat was sore. I'm going to try to fight it off, but I'm pretty sure my sinuses have already thrown in the towel. Thanks for that, my friends.
Ultrasound on Thursday. Yes, we will find out the sex! Woot! This baby better cooperate. I'm going to promise things like ponies, castles and candy, if he/she will just not be modest for one day.
We're celebrating Christmas with my family tomorrow. I cannot wait! I've already had a pretty fantastic Christmas. The family time and cuddling with Aaron has been amazing. Not to mention that everyone must think I've been good this year because I've gotten way too many gifts. Here are some of things that I've received so far: the Squeezebox, Juno, a zombie video game (that I lost interest in after 30 minutes, but Aaron played for an hour), two new scarves, a Baby-G watch, a new hair dryer, my Kat Von D eyeliner, multiple sweet pea hand sanitizers, date night gift cards, one for Chiles/Macaroni Grill/Maggiano's and one for the movie theater, a meat thermometer that you put into the meat your cooking, but the base stays on the counter top, lots of lotion, felt flower brooches hand made by B, candy, cold hard cash that I used for the Portia De Rosi book and my Baby Bargains book (I still have $70+ left), a cute owl figurine/decor thingy, a new Christmas ornament, and more things that I can't think of right now. Insane, right? I still have tomorrow too.
I reached out to the Bio dad's mom, who really was the one that took care of me when I went to his house. She's called me about a million times since and I still have not called her back, but I plan on it. I didn't realize the bio dad lives with her, so he could answer the phone. I did it for the baby though because I guess he/she has a right to know them. I love my grandmother to death, so I should have reached out sooner, but it was complicated. I'll leave it at that. I have this bad feeling like, "What have I done?"
I get to drive home on slick roads. Yea! Not. I love snow when I'm at home and not having to drive home at 1:00am in the morning. I love when people keep walking in saying, "Those roads are getting bad out there."

That's it and that's all for now. I'll have something more interesting to say later, if you're lucky!

The most wonderful day of the year

2010-12-25T20:47:00.000-06:00

That was actually yesterday when Aaron and I celebrated Christmas together. I cooked a big meal, we opened gifts, and watched White Christmas. It was perfection really. I'm at work today. Blah. We've been slammed, but actually have become less slammed (we don't say slow in the ER or it comes back to bite us).

I just wanted to wish you all a very Merry Christmas. I hope you're Christmas was filled with love and was the best day of the year. Now onto the New Year that holds nothing, but good things and happiness for us all. I'm willing it that way. :)

One for the gratitude journal

2010-12-16T22:53:00.000-06:00

After writing the last post, it made me start to think about about the man we saw outside of Target last weekend when my mom and I went Christmas shopping. It was cold and raining. He was standing out in the rain with no umbrella and a jacket, not a coat. He held a sign that stated that he had been laid off from work, had a wife and two kids, and they had been evicted from their home. He was selling Hersey's chocolate bars for whatever people would pay.

I learned from working downtown, that you can't always believe those signs or the people that are holding them. It makes me sad that we live in a world where people would take money from other people based on a lie. However, this man seemed different. First of all, he had to be absolutely freezing. It's almost wintertime, the temperature had drastically drop and it was raining.

I was driving and couldn't reach my purse, but my mom said that she had some cash to give him. She rolled down her window and handed him a $5 bill. She told him that he could keep his candy to sell to someone else. Never have I witnessed such profound gratitude. He thanked her over and over and said that he hoped that it came back to her a 1,000 times. He could not have been more appreciative.

My mom and I both got teary-eyed as we drove away. When I tried to tell Aaron the story later that night, I started to cry. To be honest, I'm crying now. Call it the hormones, but really I've always been a sucker for warm heart filled gestures and making/seeing people happy. That $5 may as well have been $1,000 by the way he reacted. The man was desperate enough to stand out in the freezing cold rain in a jacket with no hood and no umbrella to sell candy bars for his family.

I've prayed for him and his family to be taken care of in this holiday season and new year. I hope they are at least warm and that those kids have a winter coat, a roof, and food in their bellies. Thinking about his situation, made me ashamed of my last post. The post about wanting only necessities and having money to buy something I wouldn't ordinarily buy just because I have the money.

As you can see, my momma is a really good person. She instilled her values in me. I've been told at work and other times that I have a really kind soul, how sweet I am, and how they can tell I actually care about people. One of my coworkers said to me one day not too long ago, "Does your momma know what a good job she did with you? I want you to tell her how great she did and that I said so." I did tell her and her face lit up. It kind of made my day. It's not about monetary things or huge things, it can be a smile to someone who's having a bad day or holding the door open for someone. It doesn't take much to lift some one's spirits.

I've been told that when I smile, you can tell I really mean it. Of course, I do! Why would anyone smile at someone and not mean it? I am so not fake. Besides, I don't want that negative karma coming back at me. I completely believe that whatever energy you put out is what you are going to receive back.

I try to live my life in a way that I can be proud of and hold my head up high. In a way, that I hope my children will admire and follow after. After all, I had an excellent role model that steered me in the right direction. And for that, I am forever grateful.

All this cheddar and nothin' to buy

2010-12-16T14:54:00.000-06:00

I got some money for Christmas from the O parents. Do you know how sad it is for me that I can think of nothing really to buy for myself, besides some Itunes songs? All I can think of are necessity things that I can buy myself, like maternity clothes, new scrubs, new bras and underwear or things for the baby/nursery. Things that I would have bought with my own money. How sad is that?

I may buy some new black boots, but even that idea is just ho hum. Last year, I had a list of things that I wanted. I guess I'm truly turning into a mother now, necessities and things for the kids only. Pretty soon, I'll be in Mom jeans and a sweatshirt with my hair in a ponytail with no makeup on.

It makes me curious to see what other people bought for me, especially my mom and Aaron, since I really didn't tell them anything that I wanted, besides some Sephora Kat Von D eyeliner that I know I'm going to get from Aaron because I begged for it and complained about my current eyeliner until he asked me if I just wanted it now, which means he already bought it and because the little Sephora bag is peaking out from under his nightstand, but don't tell him I know, he hates ruining the surprise of presents.

Calling all crafters

2010-12-16T14:42:00.000-06:00

Can I tell you how much I love waking up at 5:00 am to go to the bathroom, only to have the husband's alarm go off when I crawl back into the warm bed? Now, maybe I could have gotten past those two things if my dang stomach would have stopped growling so loudly. Did I mention that I worked last night?

I did finally manage to fall back asleep after playing on my phone (reading blogs, emails, facebook, and craigslist) for three hours! I totally killed my battery. What did I do again before the iphone? It definitely wasn't lay in a warm bed with the whole world of the internet at my fingertips. That phone is like crack when you have nothing better to do.

Speaking of crack, most people who are in the Brentwood/Franklin area are smoking some crack with their prices of their furniture on Craigslist. I'm sorry that you over paid for your furniture, but I'm not paying $600 for your used and not that impressive furniture.

I did find something that caught my interest. I've been scouring the internet looking for a rocker for the nursery. Let me say, I want a rocker that looks like a regular chair with rockers on the bottom and not one of those gliders. Think Pottery Barn, but I'm steering clear of their $1,000 price tag for one.

I found this chair on Craigslist today. I like the size, though it may be too big, and style. Surprisingly, it's in Brentwood and only $50.

Now, you're probably wondering two things: 1. Do I actually like that color? and 2. That chair doesn't rock, does it? No and No. I want to get it reupholstered, but I have no idea where to go or how much it's going to cost. I need some advice. As far as the rocking, my mom's boyfriend asked to speak to me the other day when I was talking to her on the phone, turns out, he had a fantastic idea. He told me, since it's going to be hard for me to find a rocker that I actually like the fabric of that isn't $500+, he suggested that I find a chair that I like and he can add rockers to it, as long as the legs are attached in a way that they can come off easily. He's a great woodsman/craftsman or whatever you want to call it. He told me that the rockers would probably cost about $50 to make, depending on the wood I choose. I'm telling you, he and my mom are all about this baby. I'm thankful for his suggestion because I wouldn't have thought of that.

Now, as far as, the reupholstering, has anyone ever had anything reupholstered or know of anyone that has used a local company to do it or even that has done it themselves? Ask your friends and family (hide yo' kids and your wife...if you haven't seen this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y54yESyq6Io, watch it now. It's high-larious!) for me, please. I realize it's probably at least $200, not counting the fabric. If anyone wants to learn how to reupholster and help me, let me know too!

Token pregnant blogger post

2010-12-13T15:23:00.000-06:00

- This heartburn/reflux is ridiculous. Seriously. I've heard it's only going to get worse. Thank goodness, I can take Tums. Otherwise, I'm sure my esophagus would already be eroded by now. I can no longer drink soda or hot tea. They are by far the worst at producing burning results on my poor throat and chest. Hmm, maybe it's your body's way of making sure you don't ingest any caffeine.

- I want this stroller so badly. Too bad it's the price of our house payment. The PA that is also pregnant at work bought the more expensive stroller in this brand. Who knew I could get so jealous over a stroller!

- I'm having really vivid dreams. I wouldn't say that they are all nightmares, but they aren't laid back ones either. The one where the baby was born premature at a pound and 6 ounces and the doctor's just stood there while her lips were turning blue and I started yelling at them to do something and then finally jumped up and started CPR on my own child. Yeah, that one wasn't a good one. I bolted awake and when I fell back asleep, I went right back into the dream, only this time the doctors said they had to keep the baby underwater in the ocean in a type of pod to keep her alive. Most of my friends were there helping us out at the beach. By the way, Beaz you feel in love (or like) with my ex-boyfriend, who was also there helping us. See, completely bizarre. Last night I dreamed I was not married, but instead pregnant by a guy who I had only known about 4 months or so. We were living with two of his best friends. It turned out that all three were criminals. I was trying to explain to the cops that yes I was pregnant with his child and living with these guys, but I had no idea that they were criminals. They left me high and dry too. Though, the baby daddy did call and apologize to me. I ended up finding them and running from the cops with them. We held some girl up by gun point and made her ride with us. I don't remember why now. Oh yeah, in the dream, I propositioned the baby daddy's best friend to sleep with me. You all know I'm such a slut and all. He told me that he would love too, but that he knew that I would regret it later. Um, what guys says that? Apparently, the gender roles were reversed in that dream, fo' sure. I wonder what tonight will hold for me?

- Last time I checked I was up 6 pounds. I haven't weighed again, since Thursday. I know, I've gained more. I'm afraid to look. My stomach came out of no where in the last two days. Granted, I still don't look pregnant really, but the belly pooch is much more noticeable now. It looks like I've been enjoying the holidays a little too much! I think it's probably because I'm enjoying milk a little too much.

- We're, hopefully, going to find out the sex of the baby on December 30. I am so excited. No, I don't have a feeling either way. People keep asking me that like I'm supposed to know. I don't have a clue. The only thing that I have is that the baby is always a girl in my dreams. I'm sorry to my son, if "she" turns out to be a boy.

- I feel much better than in the beginning. My energy has returned. I'm able to stay up until 1:00 or 2:00 without a problem, which is great, since that is my work schedule and all. Speaking of that, I'm totally dreading returning to that schedule when I get back from maternity leave. I won't see the baby or Aaron at all on days I work, unless I have to get up and feed the baby early, which I probably will.

- I still haven't felt the baby move yet. Though, I do think I did about a week ago, but that was the only time. I'm hoping that I start to feel it soon.

Now, on to 17 weeks on Thursday! Time is really flying by.

A puzzle smack down

2010-12-13T00:54:00.000-06:00

Oh yeah, Saturday night we went to Aaron's boss's party. They always do a dirty santa, where they supply all the gifts. I scored yet again this year because I came home with two different serving pieces and last year I did the same. Aaron sacrificed for me, two years in row.

The highlight of the evening was not the dirty santa game, it was the big gift giveaway, which was a tool bag, which costs $130 alone, filled with hundreds of dollars worth of tools. Aaron told me that he really wanted it and that whatever we had to do to get it, he wanted us to do it. No pressure, right? Well, finally they explained what we all had to do. We had to work a 100 piece puzzle in teams of two, which worked out because just about everyone arrived with their wives or girlfriends.

Well, let me just tell you guys, we won! We worked a Sponge Bob puzzle so fast. We came from behind too. There was another couple there and they were ahead of us, but they didn't use our strategy. I told Aaron that I would build the edges, if he would start building the main characters in the puzzle, Spongebob and Gary. It turns out, that was the way to do it, because when I finished the border and he had what he had done, we were over halfway finished and then just worked to fill in the gaps. We were both shaking by the end because we knew it was close. It was exhilarating to win too! Everyone needs a little dose of competition every now and again.

I think I have the happiest man alive right now. An Xbox, his bag full of tools, and a baby on the way, it's been a pretty great Christmas for him already and it's not even Christmas yet!